Modal0154: journal 3

Given how addiction is usually a result of obsession*, I think it's fair to say that obession can be a precursor to boredom

*when it's not done in that off-handed careless risk-taking stimulation seeking way =_=

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boredom--despiar/depression

or addiction

boredom--obsession---addiction

obsession--boredom--addiction

The one in blue is the one, I could see as more relevant to me and how I wear out..

It's quite ironic..painfully..how 'everything in moderation, even moderation' doesn't guarantee a 'linear line of success' in life..only that non-linearity can actually become palatable.

If your obsessive and who-knows-in-what-way underhanded a/o obsessive enough to concretize consistent 'linear line of success' the non-linearity 'kicks in' when 'upon achieving finality (?)', all the potential for non-linearity is 'released in bulk', something which you never allowed yourself to adapt to before.

I'm curious to know the current situation (particularly in Ontario) w/student loans and tuitions fees, given how I wonder if it's changed all that much since I finished ~July '17. When Trudeau was elected back in ~'15, ~'free postsecondary education' was apparently an outcome. I don't know (last late October notwithstanding), if that is still the case. I think that it's shortsighted to say it's 'utterly free of charge' at this point or going to be like anything going on in the Scandanavian countries anytime soon.

Time logistics

I bought a year round 'Office 365' subscription b/c I became annoyed by the cumbersomeness of the online version or having to go out to places to work on a desktop version, back when I was sending out resumes..

'_' ..

Wouldn't it be a sign of security w/my postion at work et al. , if in a a few days when asked if I would like to renew it, I don't?.

Will I be reprimanded for arriving back around the same time when I would otherwise be working?, albeit I am coming back from an area not nearly as iffy.

When you worry that opening up, being nice to Caucasian ppl and no longer vouching for 'reverse racism' and saying how 'misunderstood they are' puts you at risk at being called (not-only-significant-for-black-ppl) equivalent of an 'Uncle Tom'.

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I can understand that given the character's fame Holland is expected to carry and be 'Phase 4' Marvel's poster boy..but if we are seriously meaning to get past a 12 yr long RDJr. shadow wouldn't it make more sense to?....doesn't it seem like a major oversight to not have planned to do anything with Cheadle as James Rhodes?. Heck, they took that 'post-transition' consideration w/the post-Evans 'Disney+' series Mackie and Stan are getting and that was probably before the recent fuzziness of the tangle w/Sony.

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A live action 'GI Joe and Transformers' adaptation would do both franchises, good, no?. 'Bumblebee' seemed to capture that 80's mileau which ppl have been griping for since 2k07*.

*This is coming from someone who grew up on 'Beast wars'/'Beasties', 'Beast machines', the 'Robots in disguise' and 'Armada' animes and a bit of the 'Energon' and 'Cybertron' animes, not the original 80's 'G1' series.

Lukto

Prayer, iffy use of paint, saying very offensive borderline cusses to my dog and about my sister..

I deleted pornography from this laptop.

"I do think when you think too much you're removin' what's moving" --lyric from 'By Design'*

That book on vapourware, I reserved.

*I think 'Andre 3000' did that part.

I hate how ubiquitous and significant a body of information can be and yet you can never really expect to find employment in it.

Ppl who never found use for their science courses at work.