Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
=_= ..almost forgot about the phrase 'spooning'..
Que paso a nuestros actitudes de trabajo ?:
Schwartzenegger quarantine msg email to someone I actually got along w/ who works a different library, maybe later ?.
Feel more hopeful, feeling less of a lost cause, too good for pornography.
Please don't jinx it.
I worry that requotes can get pretentious
"Western civilization has come to a universal agreement that the key to happiness is freedom. It's all we talk about. It is also why the Libertarian-leaning types even think narcotics should be legalized -- after all, shouldn't you be "free" to put anything you want into your own body? The fundamental end goal of all of this shit we're doing every day -- all the work, all the wars -- is to give people a chance to do whatever makes them happy. So why not this?
But anyone who's watched a friend tortured by withdrawal symptoms knows this is a paradox: the addict is "free" to keep doing drugs, but he's not free to stop doing drugs -- the product came with a built-in chemical mechanism that punishes the user with physical torture if they stop. That's not freedom."
--https://www.cracked.com/blog/7-creepy-ways-corporations-are-turning-you-into-addict/
Grew up w/Johnny Bravo with hindsight on how problematic it could be considered now*. Was grown up and starting feeling out of vogue w/anime after 'Attack on Titan' and increasingly with a cousin bringing up 'My hero academia':
Both together produce something funny: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YWbmyICGoJ8
* not saying that it contributed much but Seth MacFarlane wrote for the earlier seasons--a cartoon during the 90's about an Elvis like narcisstic womanizer coming anyone's mind and not only S. MacFarlane is likely to produce a character w/a 'proto-d--bag' vibe albeit made to look so silly in his inconsequential attempts on a show catered to kids.
I think, I might try to make a listing of plays I'd consider seeing or would ever be interested in seeing..
Interesting how when Mike Rugnetta did a ~'Crash course history of theatre' series that it wouldn't be until the final 50th video that Broadway would be covered, besides the expected mentions of ancient origins, ancient Hellenic stuff and Shakespeare; I did not expect that series to be as long as it was.
The interconnections w/literature movements mention caught my attention in a surprised a/o awed way/ fascinated me.
..maybe nowadays 'a historical influence has reversed' in that it's movie popularity which influence theatre adaptations.
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Imagine art students having contributed as well..
Much ado over nothing, not only b/c of Wilde having written it but b/c of the title tbh
the play version of Bolano's '2666' if it wasn't so wretchedly expensive
'The Blue Bird' (Maurice Maeterlinck) b/c kid siblings going to a magical land to see a fairy to help w/illness seems innocous in a enough in a 'school play expectation' sort of way and b/c it apparently influenced 'Rahxephon' '~' ?..
'Waiting for Godot' b/c seriously wth up w/that existentialist association, I think I remember myself being upset about not understanding it's mention in a drama or English class or maybe I kept hearing about it during English class and still didn't really understand it after mentions of it in a 'Crashcourse' video.
It's occured to me that one part of accepting how gender and sexual identities are constructs is say w/ hypothetically w/aliens who are 'sentient enough beings' that our understanding of carbon based biochemistry might not even wind up being as applicable and hence when it comes to genetics outcomes of sex based on the presence of X or Y chromosomes might not even being applicable/ relevant.
You know I'm regretful for a questionable abrasive retort to my mom, when she started saying stuff about me not eating enough while I was wrapping up an email about finished online work, right when the rest of my family went to 'Confederation(?)' park..
=~= see it's moments like those, even if you revel in seclusion and are highly introverted but miss out those instances of connecting/hanging w/others when there's rare circumstances which make me wordy and feel like kicking myself.
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My sister telling me about 'Bumble for friends'
My siblings hearing me out on thoughts of online a/o app dependent dating
My mom baring w/me even if I sound grumpy.
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My sister telling me about 'Bumble for friends'
My siblings hearing me out on thoughts of online a/o app dependent dating
My mom baring w/me even if I sound grumpy.
The space I have.
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Probably one of the most important concepts a dating couple or couple in a relationship has to understand to not get upset when gazing at others.
h--l English speaking humanity should understand this and place it into their vocabulary's soon after kindergarten imo, better before puberty..
plus long track in work email inbox.
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