Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
Hiki--
the thrill of thinking you might meet someone who understands you.
The thrill of knowing you might meet someone who understands you.
No tienes wie esta ten un minoridad para separ Queen emocionante es ser entendido.
No tienes que estar en..
Bank stuff later.
https://youtu.be/vSYPwX4NPg4
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https://youtu.be/CP0d5yJR7Yc?t=39
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Years ago, I heard that 'Warner bros' is apparently stingy as far as movie producing goes. W/so much lucrative possiblities from their IP's, I wonder if that's still true.
'_'..https://www.msn.com/en-ca/news/world/uncollected-bodies-lie-for-days-in-the-streets-of-guayaquil-ecuador-the-emerging-epicenter-of-the-coronavirus-in-latin-america/ar-BB128iKk?li=AAggNb9&ocid=mailsignout ..*sigh*, oh my.
The increased back leg(s) maybe athritically based hobble of my dog concerns me.
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"Considering the boom in domestic abuse, In France woman can order mask 19 via phone from pharmacies and then the pharmacist knows he has to send the police, in Spain they also have a codeword, here in Belgium they are going to force hotels to provide rooms for (temporary) shelter for victims of domestic abuse, in the UK the first Husband killed his wife, in Italy a dude strangled his girlfriend to death.
I think a divorce and separation boom is likelier than a baby boom"
-- interesting to hear that from commenter 'ChrisLebisII', 4-3-2k20, 12:27 p.m.
Imaging a vid montage of currents w/'Duel of the fates' played in..
Current *events*..
From 'the planet of the monsters' in counterbalance to the John William's composition: https://youtu.be/EYFfkHPBvMU
Podria hablar sobre mucho pero mi mente sige mas rapido que lo que puedo ajuntar y teclar (pensamientos).
Stupidity is seeing some loud, posturing but evidently fragile old man who probably isn't even a security guard asking ppl headed to ATM section of an unstaffed/closed bank ~'wth are you doing here ?!' in that grating local accent and him staring at me puzzled w/a 'wth is he doing?' sort of question while I'm baffled with the lack of withdrawal output wondering if it's b/c of a currently emptied machine or an issue w/my account/card.
I can pick my poison. I can pick my poison.
Ignorance in Buddhism. Avidya in Buddhism. Avidya. The time for learning about Avidya.
Cuando resudare?.
I hate it when ppl w/a snobby vibe are helpful. I hate it when you need to go to someone with a snobby vibe for help.
There's the pain which comes out of doing it for something needed but which ultimately not too important to you (for a fair amount of ppl, math classes) and there's the pain which comes out of doing it for something your passionate about (music and other arts).
