Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
I hate it when ppl w/a snobby vibe are helpful. I hate it when you need to go to someone with a snobby vibe for help.
I'm better than this.
The 'I'm better than this for now'-ness
"anyone who's watched a friend tortured by withdrawal symptoms knows this is a paradox: the addict is "free" to keep doing drugs, but he's not free to stop doing drugs "
"anyone who's watched..tortured by withdrawal symptoms knows this is a paradox: the addict is "free" to keep doing drugs, but he's not free to stop doing drugs "
In what work emails I read
-- libraries are all closed at least until the 25th of May
--I think that group events or workshop are discontinued for the remaining year but there might be a few concessions on the way
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online work reduced to half for two weeks b/c of Easter related days
I mean to type my ideas on how return amounts,carts and shelving are going to look like
My autonomy seeking a--.
*inner chuckle*
I'm going to need to brush up on my De Botton before dating.
..si amistad es el mejor basis por un relacion pos-amistad, talbez ayudaria desarollar un congenial basis for breakups beforehand.
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Salvadoran style orchata having been made.
I'm impatient enough that I'd like to see articles on what major socioeconomic trends will emerge once social distancing is no longer required and things 'settle' ,to give more expediency to my understanding/expectations.
I actually don't really feel like pondering/speculating that one out.
Cancel culture and Lindsay Ellis
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"1-13-2k20 [originally]
I can less ambiguously say that for the 14 yrs of labor investment process/schooling spent only in *3* was a I 'happy'.
[it was based on what I sort of 'calculated out' in my meatspace journal after fixating on actually seeing how many hours there are in a year]
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There has to be a name for like a bias or fallacy where you expect lofty outcomes from some factor in which many ppl are following or at least nominally associated or related to something but very few are actively involved in or practicing.
=_= Guess what is making me think this..
April 5th is liberation day to me.
