Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
'Knowledge' hub can still be soothing in small doses.
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Tempted to start another journal b/c I don't know if I should keep a ~300 entry limit like w/the previous, one a thing; nice looking number but I switched out previously b/c of a frustration before the gravitas of the current ambience really sunk in.
Simplicidad robusto.
Exercise+meditation
【 Ｍｏｄａｌ０１５４ ｊｏｕｒｎａｌ： ｖｏｌ．ＩＶ】
ｍｉｌｄｌｙ░ｓｅｌｆ░ｉｎｄｕｌｇｅｎｔ░ｒｅｔｒｏｓｐｅｃｔｉｖｅ（ｓ） （彙鉛ずね）
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https://insightmusic.co.uk/insight-focus-the-rise-and-fall-of-lo-fi/
The *contract renewal of exam invigilating*-- `_` here's to it not becoming problematic w/current circumstances. Sometime in May, I think..
In a few months or maybe a few weeks, the benchmark of a decade of habitual journalling will be reached.
Having a 'the skin deep' card game and expecting to play it on a date or something to that effect would be living on hope.
@Modal0154
"No worries, we will not be renewing in May as all classes for the summer term will be on line only. We will renew again sometime in the summer to start again in September, assuming and hoping the pandemic is over." --4-9-2k20
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The one time for around the end of my final community college program when I had a clipboard w/names of ppl being partnered for a final co-op (I think) and a girl (of a phenotype I'm fond) was..comfortable enough..to lay her head on one of my shoulders to look at the clipboard I was holding.
=_= ...trying to not think of it anymore than when me and mainly family went on a cruise trip and on one of the Virgin islands, someone young and female wearing like an old style sailor outfit, smiling and making 'come hither' gestures before just rushing to me and taking a photo w/me.
"^_^ jejeje "=_______= =~= ..one instant in less awkward than another, I suppose.
No shame in eating a cookie baked by my cousin.
Demisexual, sapiosexual, asexual.. '_' if there is a certain freedom in not attaching to identities b/c of the freedom which comes with the leeway for diversity does that mean that the concept of a 'Platonic relationship' still has relevancy?.
When someone asks you to do them a favour but you can't justify not doing it with saying your doing work.
ᴵ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵏ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗⁱᵐᵉˢ ʷʰᵉⁿ ⁱᵗ ᶜᵒᵐᵉˢ ᵗᵒ ʲᵘˢᵗⁱ ʸⁱⁿᵍ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ, ⁱᵗ'ˢ *ᵗʰᵉ ᵛᵒᶜᵃˡⁱᵗʸ* ᵒ ⁱᵗ ʷʰⁱᶜʰ ᶜᵃᵗᶜʰᵉˢ ᵒⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ..'ᵛᵃˡⁱᵈⁱᵗʸ' ᵒ ⁱᵗ'ˢ ˡⁱⁿᵉ ᵒ ᵃʳᵍᵘᵉᵐᵉⁿᵗ ᵃⁿᵈ ⁱⁿᵛᵉˢᵗⁱᵍᵃᵗⁱⁿᵍ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵛᵃˡⁱᵈⁱᵗʸ.
I take entertainment too seriously they say "^_^
i͓̽t͓̽'͓̽s͓̽ ͓̽r͓̽h͓̽y͓̽t͓̽h͓̽m͓̽s͓̽ ͓̽a͓̽n͓̽d͓̽ ͓̽m͓̽e͓̽l͓̽o͓̽d͓̽i͓̽e͓̽s͓̽,͓̽ ͓̽s͓̽o͓̽ ͓̽t͓̽o͓̽ ͓̽s͓̽p͓̽e͓̽a͓̽k͓̽ * , https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3ltZmI5LQw
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