Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
Finally finished the banalities of contacting and listening to responses from social assistance related agencies..@_' , not really feeling it for online work *today*
Always unhappy when I still haven't exercised or meditated.
Difficulty w/either habits is doing them on an empty stomach being someone who struggles to sleep early and wake up early plus actually likes/looks forward to breakfast.
Finally finished the banalities of contacting and listening to responses from social assistance related agencies..@_' , not really feeling it for online work *today*
Always unhappy when I still haven't exercised or meditated.
Difficulty w/either habits is doing them on an empty stomach being someone who struggles to sleep early and wake up early plus actually likes/looks forward to breakfast.
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Excel adjustments still not done *sigh*
The editing fts for forum postings ought to change-- I hate accidental double posting.
Gj:
Online work
Still functional computers
Internet access
A 'found' meal with 'found' ingredients which culminated in an enjoyable pasta w/a sauce, fresher than the kind in a jar
Having gotten responses from agencies
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Also ebook loan
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It's funny how often you can be called 'a deadbeat' for trying to live free
Wondering (library computer systems) what the listing for things not taken out or those taken out only a dozen times might look like..
perks of online work--possibly having snacks or a meal next to you and maybe listening to music
YouTube AMV's are a 'lost art' waiting to be revived..consider lyric videos today and 'Bad child' by Tones and I
When it comes to 'simple joys' in life, internet comments can be part of it, like w/nature documentary clips^1.
^1 Useful for conservation awareness and efforts b/c goodness knows how ardous it'd be for most wannabe YouTubers to emulate
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Would sooner entertain conversations on the aftermath of all this being more like 'A quiet place' rather than 'The purge'^2
I remember reading once how the symbolism of the xenomorph's, parastic horror no longer being fear inducing was why Ridley Scott made 'Prometheus' . The franchise has fallen to mixed reception/mediocrity^3--I won't be surprised if the significance of the first 'A quiet place' movie will be lost w/the sequel.
^2 'Alternate history hub' has done 2 amusing videos on why that scenerio wouldn't pan out. That franchise is ridiculous in that ppl involved in it's production a/o consumption process are so high on unwitting privlege that they think imeediate, violent societal deterioration would happen in their spot of the world which 'at it's worst' in consider a mundane condition for dozens of other areas..aware of arguable evocation of the fallacy of relative privation
^3 Also Disney owns Fox which has 'Aliens' as an IP..plus 'the planet of the apes' .. ._. hmm, there's that
Finding out how to set a YouTube video to loop--gj
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Days until trying out online therapy?..
Suggestions/guesses for a 2nd 'MK11' downloadable character package: Minotauro, Reptile, one of the introduced MK10/'MK X' characters who were friends w/Cassie and Jackie, Conan the Cimmerian/'barbarian' ^1,Red Sonja and 'really stretching it' Buffy 'the vampire slayer' Summers or Lara Croft^2
..sure I could see Milenna included. I dont know what Bo'Rai Cho could contribute plot-wise. I don't know much about Ash from the 'Evil dead' series and who said it'd only have to be 6 characters again?.
^1 consider the 'Conan: exiles' look
^2 found out how a writer for the 2k13 reboot game was Terry Prachett's daughter (Rhianna)
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'~' Thing about those games is that you also have to stomach seeing your favourite characters distinctively mutilated >~<
Having seen 'deepfake' videos of actors faces on the MK11 cutscens (ex. Jennifer Lawrence as Cassie, 'the Rock' as Cabal, Donny Yen as Kung Lao), I wonder if come the early 2k21 movie that will be done again.
These were such videos in mind
There's Wolverine but given the direction Marvel is going with..
Jamie Jo Burns is a saint. The vibe of sweetness, I get from her is such that I have the audacity to say that.
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...I hate it when porn performers remind my of someone or vice versa..
I'm declining to to use DA for social media use.
I like word 'madcap'.
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'the' word.. -_-
Still on a 'Mortal kombat' kick..fascinated by the games for their stories and long history.Found out about the voice actors (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jj0AgO9lpKM&list=LLoanzi7Qy4pcGyoT4Kte7zw&index=3) and face models (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bn5sgK2ziWI&list=LLoanzi7Qy4pcGyoT4Kte7zw&index=5&t=0s) for 'MK11', w/the actor who was 'Shang Tsung' in the '95 movie having both voiced and face modelled for MK11.
Found out how Kerri Hoskins was the person who was Sonya in the original 3 games.. ._. and she also did glamour modelling including for 'Playboy'..
'Reporting here' b/c when your wondering down rabbit holes, telling yourself 'there are better things' when what your looking at isn't even really a pleasant experience but is how many degrees from you falling off the trail on the face of cliff.
Always that theme song which pumps me up :I
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hmm..Cetrion's possible face model not having been brought up makes me think the video is incomplete..and Chronica among other. Given the 'DC v. MK' game and 'Injustice II' cameos we know that 'MK' mythos can still have a presence when it's not trying to be so excessive.
we know that 'MK' mythos can still have a presence when it's not trying to be so excessive..
https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Franchise/MortalKombat
"The designers, encouraged by their success [w/violence] , racked up the body count in subsequent installments, devising entirely new methods of dismemberment and decapitation. Eventually, the violence grew cartoonish in its excess, and the gameplay engine was not enough to sustain its popularity once other companies caught on to the idea that violence was nothing to be scared of. And while other series have made a successful leap to 3D, MK was "hit and miss". Add that to the fact that virtually no one ever actually died in the story, despite the ultra-violent nature of the games (a move that virtually guarantees stagnation), and you've got a series that seemed to be on its last legs..."
[before the 9th one which came after Midway's bankrupcy and WB's purchase]
other fighting game franchise
W/out commeting on 'Esta rico' w/Marc Anthony and Bad Bunny, as still likeable but increasingly less relevant tbh as Will Smith is, when he was more involved in music, I think we basically understood how ever after his 'Fresh Prince' phase he was mainly a novelty rapper..this isn't about comparing him to his wife, younger kids or Jamie Foxx and LL Cool J.. it's about how still pumped I get watching this old trailer using a 'Lost and found' album song :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZhpvvF0xxQ and succeding imo at not being hokey
Whereas here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJU9h-Aw-8I your mileage may vary on cosplay (not fond of the later lyrics in the Junior Caldera, Natalia Kills, Far East Movement song) but how it lends itself to sedgewaying into +0:41. I'm still thankful for that 'making of' video; not denying how sexual attraction and fighting can be fueled by the same spectrum and make a kicka-- trailer is neat.
Always me and the rush to get through things b/c I think that everything is against me
my problem/OCD
The story of 'haves' and 'have nots' is too difficult to ignore-- I am lonely.
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=_= Ni puedo manejar.
