Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
When it comes to the careers of 00's Disney channel sitcom alum, Cole Sprouse still has a space of fondness in my heart--
I could personally envision could become a more serious actor in the vein of Brody, Clooney ,DiCaprio, Pitt or Wahlberg or a great voice actor. Estaria bien conmigo cual quiera.
if Cole had a semi-important role in an Aaronofsky or Nolan movie..
Lucho con esto.
If you practice daily 'x amount' of meditation and exercise w/almost nothing having stopped you since, you started..something happens where if you refrain OCD like stuff happens which might amplify factors related to that, which were already there before you took up such practices.
S--ky the things you realize w/'at home work'
When you implement a habit which is meant to become rote, it can be drag in how you wake up everyday knowing that something has already determined your time spending.
I think this is why self-compassion is so key and resisting self-compassion via addictions which increasingly vocalize being undeserving.
https://connfitzgibboncounselling.ie/wp-content/uploads/2018/11/CBT-Dundrum.jpg
Give it space
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*sigh*
Pt. o'that self-compassion
(I) means not giving yourself a hard time w/self-criticism on how initially committed your identity was to such practises
(||) me not kicking myself too hard for skipping online work entirely for a day.
I also think that it can be difficult to kick addictions when you know how often it happens, when you know how often it happens and when you get past self-deceptively apathetic societal judgement and know there is a layer or compassion..
..it can seem like something bitter to swallow, a 'rip off' or a disappointment to the expectation of a consequence like the finality of death.
An impulse to judge and punish can be dangerous
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cmdx7C_R6rA
when it doesn't get around to being 'sublimated'--
I know that.
A not so tender attitude, 'genderized'..it's still a struggle to break the grip of understanding power, understanding finality and certainty via a male's lense isn't it?.
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do you like looking at?..a forgotten basis for art; lost arts.
Don't forget that question when it comes to art.
Pensaria que habria 'un boom' en YouTubers live-streaming mas al menudo ahora.
=_= When you can't even or are having trouble or are putting your care on a shelf as far as discerning via voice whether a parent is sober.
Romance is the 'grown up form' of friendship..apparently.
Pero see articulato acerca de vaporwave.
Cool quote from a listener profile.
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Having reported social assistance info.
Seriously worrying about having a fridge too full "^_^ .
It's also why I find journalling to be so important.
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Notice how the steam for the upcoming U.S. reelection campaign trailer will pivot the ambience of everything once more if public health actually changes.