Modal0154 journal: vol.IV
Speaking as someone who..lacks autonomy, speaking as someone who is autistic, speaking as someone 'fundamentally' friendless, speaking as someone who communicates, speaking as someone who struggles not to regret, speaking as someone unsure of resuming to read through what he wrote, speaking as someone bilingual, speaking as someone who has *a lot of issues* 'following his own voice', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do self-confidence', speaking as someone who 'doesn't do trust' neither intrapersonal or interpersonally w/uncompromising authenticity..
John Cage's idea of how silence is only an idea, intrigues/fascinated me..
how I wish to gush about it
Camomile tea for sleeping didn't work.
I have an expectation to not freak out for my medical professional signed documents not having arrived to a social assistance agency.
I can understand if a current higher-up will reply back telling me to wait on msg-omg a different higher-up.
4-16-2k20
I will admit to having fibbed regarding income while making a dating website profile recently. '_' I deeply think it is heavily divisive and classist to delimit the possible compatability outcomes on the basis of your income range, b/c d--n it I know how it can indicate a personality implicative (ex. the education, a person likely needs to have that top tier income) but d--n it I'd rather decide on my own if I'm not good enough or compatable enough to be mingling w/someone in Warren Buffet's income range.
When a family member who participates in something of an evangelical denomination puts up a video* and your mom is listening in captivation struggling to understand, your sister is doing semi-translations and your tempted to interpose with more accurate translations but you detest to entertain such content by providing a communicative dissemination in about the same way you hated typing in some conspiratorial schlock take about vaccines which your dad sought for not being able to navigate a PS3 YouTube app at the time.
*hearing a a video about how music has no function outside of worship
Looking into the kind of social assistance being given to my family currently and I can't apply to it given how I am technically still working.
I sent a msg to 'the chief librarian' about how pages will resume work and from my higher-up a message I don't fully understand quoting HR about rebooking a break.
I'd like to think how I conveyed to her how at least a cancellation is what I would like..
if no patience to wait to msg my usual higher-up than call HR..
Also, I made another dating site profile
Nothing like losing morale by going to the group chats on here w/expectations =_=
Samoa episode on 'Geography now' is up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BfAw2U1hD_4&list=PL9J9QT-J2PmsXJ021HQYkMwC9I1yTEnkI&index=3
"why is no one appreciating that this was a continuous take"--commenter
:D Friggin, having this play https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J93fc--VsaI while using 'Immersive reader' on MS Word to read an email for me out loud is AWESOME ! xD
'Annoying'* is a f--g understating lie or product of underthinking, if there ever was one.
* esa palabra >:|
So much advice and yet so many wrong starts.
So much advice and yet so many wrong starts w/too d--n deep and interfering damage, eh?.
The criminality of saying a person loses personhood if they are friendless.
https://youtu.be/GxM9BZeRrUI?t=300
5:00-5:45
Social exclusion .i.e. the basis of exclusion of the mental unwell and judgment / condemnation
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GGCvBMQqTs&list=PL9J9QT-J2PmsXJ021HQYkMwC9I1yTEnkI&index=5&t=0s
Please don't tell me a marred sleeping habit will f--k up my opportunities for the remaining quartentine =_=
I'm stupid enough to forget how 'skill excellence accumulation' will choicelessly and unawarenly mean, me being less wordy and going about it when authentically achieved.
*Es parte de su ontologia
@Modal0154
I'm *not* stupid..
I like yoga and qigong when it comes to exercise b/c it provides a gentler idea of success+ fitness than most anything else I saw or heard growing up from say comparatively, sports usually.