My diary :3

I don't feel okay at all. I feel like I am being attacked with so many feelings at a time xD I know I dont feel okay but know how I actually feel? I feel everything and nothing. That is making my head hurt so much rip. I feel lonely and so alone gosh xD And it's not like I don't have friends. But Idk xD Hah I have wasted half of my day watching South Indian movies like I have been doing from past few days. :3 I wish I could manage to get few hours of sleep at least. It's getting harder. What else to expect if you get shoved with another loss to deal with when even dealing with one was hard enough. Writing this, I feel like I am being dramatic over nothing big xD I don't know. Am I overreacting? Then again, I would love to find that one person who would listen to my whole story without being "Eh you are lying " straight in my face. I am not. :3 But what can I do? It's my crazy life where everything is abnormally normal :3

So that's all for today xD I hope I update it back soon.

Woaaaaah been ages! Sooo hi past me, 

First of all, things get worse and worse and worse and more worse hahahahaha. If I would have told you in 2019 the things you will have to go through in these coming years, you would have laughed at me and said "You are kidding right?" I can't begin to tell you how much worse. But guess what? You are one *** of a person; no matter what, you have persevered. And you continue to do so, I can't be more prouder of you. 🤍

One thing that never changed though surprisingly, is I am still the same hahahaha. I used to think first thing that happens when you grow up is you lose your personality, you become a whole different person. NOPEEE, still the same lmaoo. Kinda proud about it, you know? I only gained, didn't loose. 

We are one step away from achieving our biggest dream that you saw for us. You knooow, there was road blocks after road blocks, uhhh only road blocks. xDD Somehow, you are about to make it out though loll. 

Ohhh and guess whatttt? You had a movie worthyyy love story LOL. xD That dream is complete tooo. Things ended and you are devastated but mehh, at least you got to experience it and that too, with the best person who turned out to be the worst person in disguise LOL. Filmy, right? 4 long yearsss, who would have thoughhtttt xD With the way, you had difficulties even sticking true to a crush, not me, loll. 

-.- You still have 1000 different interests, cant say a simple NO, soooo that's that. (WHY did you have to be this way, I sweeear life would have been easier if you didn't make it a life mission to become a know it alllllll). 

You still have so much ambition, its crazy. I am sure things will work out though and you somehow will manage to do that too. You have a knack of making things work out, don't you? 

Phase 2 of life training arc will start soon, and I need you to look over me and guide me, okay? I desperately need the outgoing part of me on the play here. I have turned docile and scared of interactions, can you imagine? I think its this place, I have never been more underestimated in my life before. Its okay though, you have always been more than your weight and issues. If they were a 9, you were a 10 lol.

I will come back and update you on every part of the life soon, oki? Thank you for never giving up on life, on others, on yourself mainly. I will do the same, no matter what.