My thoughts today.

First off,here's a post I made on reddit:

I'm done,and I'm actually tired of the phrase "Get Help"

Because:

1-What it really means is "You're scaring the shit outta,get outta my face" and that you have NO understanding of mental illness and that you don't want to learn about it/care to learn about it.

2-Mental health professionals are NOT superheroes. They are NOT gods and goddesses. They CANNOT save the world/stop a nuclear war,etc.

3-And personally,when people tell me to get help...they attach a insult with it(yeah,cyber-bulling people to get help,REAL nice of you!/s).

4-Instead of going in-depth to tell a person WHY they're wrong,you'd rather dismiss them as "crazy"(again,ZERO awareness of mental illness...people who do this are just being fucked up for no reason)

And also,having your post history used as a stick to beat you over the head with doesn't help matters much at all.

So,if people want to think that mental health professionals can save the world singlehandedly/just be assholes to you,then so be it.

And if i am a crazy ass nigger for feeling what I feel,then fine. I'll own it. I'll be the bad guy then.

In fact,I really wish I took up cutting a LONG time ago...it would've helped me so much.

But,the shitty thing is the scars,but oh well,that can be covered up.

Get help...I have gotten help before...

Two shrinks,while they had their hearts in the right place,actually told me that they don't really know how to really help me(and one of them,I'm seeing now and I'm very happy with),and there was one that did not give one-fourth of a shit about my issues and made me feel WORSE.

Shrinks...people love them so much,yet they can fuck you over and make you fell even shittier.

And then there's my little North Korea problem:I can't even think about them without getting pissed the fuck off...I guess the tl;dr of it is,I don't really want death by Korean in my life...but if that's my fate,then fuck it,so be it.

I'm just tired and I'm done.

I just hate how people think shrinks can do anything and everything and yet they can be shitty in themselves.

Yet reddit seems to put them on a pedestal.

Whatever,if I get too pissed,I'll just cut. that's all.


And along with that:

-I'm scared of Koreans/Chinese(North Korea,trump and bad experiences I had with Koreans in the past)

-I didn't know being wrong meant the death penalty

-Having feelings seems to be wrong.

-It's utterly breathtaking how people misunderstand/are utterly ignorant of mental illness.

-And I'm just done;I've had it. if people want to live in their damned dream worlds,then so be it.

-And if my feelings/fears make me a bad person,then so be it,forgive ME for being human!