PSA:Being fat:catastrophic for mental health.
If you have family/parents who nag you horribly for being fat,then welcome to hell.
I actually WANT someone to shoot me now. I deserve it.
Really.
@ADX98927 I'm so sorry you're going through this and are feeling this way :( you don't deserve people being cruel to you over something as unimportant as weight. Your life is valuable and you have so much worth, no matter what awful things people are saying about you. It only reveals truths about their character, not about you. I hope you can stay strong through this and in time see how wonderful you are, simply because you're YOU 
You don't deserve it at all :( I'm so sorry that you don't feel like you have a safe space. I'm sure you're beautiful, but yeah, that doesn't take away from how people and society react to that, and the effect that has on you. You are worth it. Please don't harm yourself. You deserve better treatment than that.