Day 1: 6/27/18
Life has been so monotonous of late, just the daily cycle of struggling to wake up early enough, sloshing through the day, and then struggling to get enough sleep for the next day. Each day feels the same, and it's honestly very tiring. On top of that, I still feel bitter and hurt by events that happened earlier this year. It's nice that I've been happier and more content lately, after organizing my life some and learning to take care of myself better, but the same feeling of emptiness still pervades my life.
Ugh.
Day 6: 7/2/18
I've been getting worse lately and it's really frustrating. All my previous habits and thoughts and emotions are just coming back to me and I'm struggling to hold them back. Meanwhile, deadlines are coming up and I'm not ready. I'm just terrified right now, which is so weird. Everyday seems like another run of agony to endure, and it feels like there's no escape from this.
Day 48: 8/13/18
Well it has been a while, hasn't it?
Anyways, I've been so stressed and busy and its really taking a toll on me. That, and worrying about school starting is draining the life out of me. School starts in less than two days but I still don't feel an ounce prepared. I don't want to go back. I have two of the same teachers as last year, and they were the two teachers that I liked the least. On top of that, I've stupidly procrastinated on my summer homework and left nearly all of it to be done in the week before school starts. I don't even know whether or not I'll finish on time.
@PrincessParadox
hey there.. it sounds terrible what you write here, and what's happening in your life.
the first thing i want you to know is that i wanted to help you even if all i can do is writing to you
the second thing is thank God i'm here and you're still writing
well, life can be so hard on some people and so easy on others right? the answer is NO... a VERY BIG NO.. life is hard on everyone on every single one of us... the difference is how people react to it. now please forrgive my harsh-looking language but i'm really trying my best to support you.. i didn;t like it when i didn;t see any replays to your corner of thoughts.. its a beautiful idea you know.. i have a corner of thoughts too in my phone but its like a story, whenever i have a good or bad time i write in that story the good feelings of mine, you know.. that story i called The Golden Flower, i thought once " why don't i ask mom about her opinion like,, what do you think should happen next?" but after that i felt like .. it has to be only my thoughts or it wont be as i wanted it to be.... then i thought that " hey.. people can affect my writing by doing nice things to me,,, but of course not those basterds who dare to make me sad they have no place in my story by anyway... and thats how is our lives ^^ ... imagin your life is like a story of yours, if you choose to put bad feelings in it it would be draumatic right? but if you choosed only the beautiful ones out of everything happened in that day, it will be even better than you imagined it, then if there is any beautiful beings you trust around you let them be a part of your life, else.. don't fight them, but just don't let them in...
aand this is my piont of the view you're free to try, and remember, if you wanna be free, make anything bad happened to you as your falt, then correct your actions and you will see the difference ^^
hope your life gets sweeter 
Day 51: 8/13/18
Well, I'm surprisingly still here. School wasn't as bad as I thought it would be - my friendships hadn't detiorated as much as I had thought they would, and my teachers seem pretty nice. I'm still worried about my time management though, and the workload that is soon to come. On another note however, life is a pain because I've drifted so far apart from everyone in real life. I've lost most meaningful connections, and the fact that I had few to begin with anyways does not help. Rebuilding my social circles is going to take so much work. I don't know if I can find people who click with me the right way for the rest of high school.
Day 51: 8/13/18 (Part 2)
I figured I should probably introduce myself and give a little bit of background about me to the people who are curious.
I have a policy of not sharing any names/nicknames that I go by on this account, in order to preserve my anonymity, but you may call me Princess if you want. I'm 15 at the time of writing this, and I'm a sophomore in high school. I've struggled with mental health issues for the past eight years, approximately. I don't label the symptoms I have any more, as I don't want to misdiagnose, but I've have experienced loneliness, sadness, anxiety (not at the level that it impacts my daily function), hopelesness, isolation, possibly mania, and desperation at varying intensities and intervals. I have also been suicidal historically, but I'm currently not actively suicidal. Additionally, I'm transgender, a fact that I've been aware of for about five to six years at this point (my prnouns are she/her/hers). But, enough about the dreary stuff. I'm also a pianist and a cellist, and enjoy gaming. As well, I have a passion for biology and learning in general. Previously, I've been a swimmer, and have played tennis, soccer, and baseball when I was younger, but I'm not physically active now.
Hope you've learned a thing or two ❤︎