Want To See Me [Edited--Trigger Warning]?
I'm tired of being ridiculed by everyone on this damn site. I am harming myself and nobody gives a f*ck. Everyone just toys with my emotions and laughs at all the pain & trauma I went through.I'm bleeding as of right now. I made a forum expressing how angry I am with this world we live in. I still feel that way. All I can is sorry if I end up killing myself, but don't say I didn't warn people. People have no consideration and judge me. They attack me every chance they get as if I did something wrong. Well maybe I did. Maybe me being alive is the wrong in all of this. This ain't just a cry or a plea for help, but this is real life. Nobody will care when I'm gone. I was hoping maybe some person can understand me without making me feel worse, but it's too late for that in my eyes. I will never accept the help because I can't even help myself and it has nothing to do with you people, but the hurtful sh*t said to me does give a motive. Maybe I am not good enough.This is it. F*ck you all and have a nice life without me. My existence doesn't matter and quite frankly? It never did...
ONLY TIME SOMEONE GIVES A F*CK ABOUT SOMEBODY IS WHEN THEY'RE DEAD. I GUESS I'M NOBODY IMPORTANT OR SPECIAL. THIS F*CKING WORLD HATES ME!!!
No one should bring you down for what you do. I understand that you are hurting right now but I PROMISE you have so much to live for. I know how you're feeling, as I used to self harm and I still do sometimes. It's so hard to overcome but I promise it WILL get better.
I'm bleeding
Someone named bouncyfish made a post about you on a different thread asking people to help you, they said they are worried about you....
Can I talk to you? I would really love to
Hey FloodedCrissis, it's me again. I told you I would be back everyday if that's what it took so here I am. Do you want to talk? How are you?
@FloodedCrissis Don't make vows when you're angry/hurt. Your words have power, just like anything else you do and say, and especially the ones you say to yourself. I know people can be mean, rude and insensitive, it doesn't mean that there aren't better and more loving people out there that are willing to help you in any way they can. Telling yourself that you're never going to get help is a self fulfilling prophecy, you won't allow yourself to get help thus you never will, and then you'll assure yourself that what you thought was true all along, and the vicious cycle repeats. It's never too late, and the fact that you are alive right now means that despite the terrible things you've gone through, you're still alive. You're meant to be here as much as anybody else, don't forget that.
@FloodedCrissis recovery is possible, and you always start with baby steps. Moving a little forward is always better than staying still. I'm here if you need me, although I'm not quite sure how this app works, I just joined :l
I care. The obvious pain you are in (which you want to cease) actually causes me sorrow.
There are people that take joy in others suffering. I'll never understand this type of deviant behaviour. I think it is the worst attribute someone can have.
Be kind to yourself. Be forgiving with yourself, Treat yourself with kindness and patience.
If you believe that assistance might help, go for it. Looking for help is not a sign of weakness, but of strength.
No one can say, "I've been there". I believe we all suffer and are all in some sort of pain. Of course, this pain is personal and undescribable. While this may seem to separate us, it also joins us together.
I'll wish you strength. (I hate saying, "good luck". Luck has nothing to do with it.)
I hope to see your posts again. I realize you are suffering. This genuinely makes me sad.
Wentyou the one that told me like an hour ago I was faking it and called me something rude?? Maybe if you cared for others depression and problems someone would care about yours
I Know what I just said was mean but so is what you told me when I was trying to find help.... you know it's taken me 12 years to even open up about what's going on inside and u ruined all the courage i had built up with one stupid rude message because why?? Why did you say I was lying and wanted attention?? Do you hurt so bad you have to tare everyone else trying to better them self down to your piddly level
Even when, and if, someone is mean or rude to you, try and respond with kindness. It's not easy, but try and realize we are all suffering.
Of course, people should never be mean or rude to you! That is clearly wrong, but you cannot change others.
You are able to, even when someone treats you poorly, live as an example. Even though it may not change the situation at hand immediately, you never no who is watching / listening and be influenced by your genuine act of kindness.
It's not easy. I believe is is the right way to live. Take it for what you want. Feel free to tell me to mind my own business or go to heck. This is just my opinion. It wasn't asked for, I know that.
I personally see anger as one of the most destructive emotions we can have, and I'm not saying that at any point you acted in anger! Anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. Anger will only hurt you. Be careful. Be kind, forgiving, and patient with yourself. Sometimes you need to take a deep breath, step back, and not let your ego be bruised by someone else.
If it didn't take me several years to get the courage to even talk to people about what's going on I wouldn't have cared. But now I don't even want to deal with my self THAT I HATE SO MUCH. And my husband gets out of the gentle hospital tomorrow and I didn't want to be a wreck but thanks to his rude comment saying I.was just wanting attention that's not gonna happen... and if I drag my husband back down to the depressed state he was because of this prick being roof. People are gonna have to worry about more then him saying boo hoo I'm hurting myself because no one cares.... I know I'm still being mean but as far as I car he's faking it and can go chock on a twat
I genuinely hope both you and your husband are well. Try not to give people's statements (online or in real life) more power than they deserve.
Keep yourself safe.
I really hope you won't allow this one person to ruin the strength and courage you built up. They are not worth it. "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent". They say cheaters often accuse their partners of cheating. This might be the case here. Someone could be accusing you of lying and seeking attention because....well you get the picture.
I completely agree. Don't give people the power to determine your atitudes.
@FloodedCrissis -- I hope you are able to find some peace and get some help. You can browse listeners (https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/) to connect 1-1 with a listener once you are safe. In the meantime, please contact www.suicide.org or www.imalive.org for more help. You are worth it!
