What happened this February.

Hi,

My name is Rain, and I'm about to tell you what happend within these past 26 days.

My mental health has been deteriorating at a drastic pace, while finally coming to terms with my uncle/godfather going through dementia.

12 days ago, I relapsed with self-harm which I thought I had gotten through but apparently not.

A week ago my brother got really sick and I had a chance to take him to the doctors twice, but I didn't. A day after the last chance he began having seizures from severe dehydration and I've been feeling like that was my fault. Thankfully he's been feeling better.

My Aunt passed away 3 days ago in the hospital and I've been working on staying calm.

My mother called me yesterday to tell my that my other two aunties found out that they have cancer.

I'm losing my mind and I'm trying to stay calm but I'm feeling very overwhelmed and starting to freak out because I feel like I'm going to start losing more family members...

I don't know what to do...