Angie's One line a day
Today my mom said your not ok. And shes right im not. I dont even know whats wrong to be honest. I feel really sad right now but then again I feel sad like this every night. Heh this isnt one line
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i had a nightmare. which dosent make any sense because usually my dreams are just a black oblivion. i had a nightmare... where i killed my self. heh guess its not really a nightmare since its what ive wanted to do all this time. i wont though since theres just sooo much more to live for. it would be real nice to just dissapear, to just be floating round in the void forever with my never ending thoughts. Or to just run away and go on an adventure. i like adventures. never really got to travel. ah the joys of being poor. i had a nightmare..
i just remembered those acrostic- is that what you call them? the acrostic poems i did last year in english. ill try to make one right now
F0king
Obviously
Cant
Usually
Seem to do this
aaaa im so bad at it ill shut up now it was just a thought
6-7-2023
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i cant. i cant- i wrote a whole paragraph and now its gone because my dumass dropped my computer.. and nobody will leave me alone. it feels like im drowning or someone is drowning me, drowning so slowly…
i feel so sad and it wont go away. nothing can make it go away…. except maybe self harm. ive been doing that for quite a while actually and i know its not good at all but atleast im not vaping or doing drugs idk 🤷♀️ im just so tired of life
i cant wait for all this to be over..
i hate my life. i hate myself. i want to change it.. its like this whole time i haven't been in control and im now just realizing it. like ive playing a video game and somewhere along the line someone else stole the controller and they've just been using it all this time- and I've just been watching all this time... or maybe its always been like this cus ive always known there was something alittle off about myself. the only difference now is that other people are starting to notice too... so we can all hate me!
woohoooo... i need some sleep ;-;
Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room.. a rubber room, a rubber room with rats, the rats made me crazy 😋 Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room.. a rubber room, a rubber room with rats, the rats made me crazy 😋Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room.. a rubber room, a rubber room with rats, the rats made me crazy 😋
mkay ill stop now i think- im going maad....
God it hurts so bad..
i dont know what to do or say
i never know
im sorry
tw..?
im really not good at keeping routines.. my lifes a mess. i dont know what to do. everythings to big and to bright and too loud and too fast. i wanna go to sleep.. forever
no one would care and i know it. i know i dont care. Schools over at least no more racist older kids shoving me around
im going to smash my head into the wall
i cant…
It is important to listen to your mother's concerns and acknowledge that you are not feeling well. Pinpointing the exact cause of our sadness can be challenging at times, but addressing and exploring your emotions is vital. Consider seeking support from a mental health professional who can help you understand and manage your feelings. Remember, you don't have to face this alone, and asking for help is a brave step toward recovery. Take care of yourself and be patient in understanding and processing your emotions.
i really would like to see a therapist bit my family situation makes that impossible :/ I’m also really really bad at like talking about my emotions out loud and id probably end up having a mental breakdown or just stop talking. so thats nice
sorry im rambling…..
and thanks for the advice 🙃
