Aqua at sea
I guess I'd take a crack at making one of these posts.. I hope I'll be able to just be myself and let my thoughts out.
I have so many things that are on my mind and only rarely do some get let out through my mouth so perhaps instead I'll type them out for a change.
TWs just in case
I don't really know who to tag here but if you wanna respond go for it 💙
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@aquaaaaa
it's like I have a gag tied to my mouth. I can't voice anything out. and even if I do it doesn't make me feel any better. maybe that'll change soon.
I hope I haven't let anyone down.
@aquaaaaa
it's alright.. one more day.
@aquaaaaa
I'm alive!!! (yippeeee!!!!)
@aquaaaaa aliveness is good. it's hard though. ❤️ Takes a lot to just be alive sometimes. I'm proud of you, seriously. *offers hugs*
I missed you. i think i got an upvote from you recently (or maybe it feels like recently) and i realised it's been forever :') 🥺 ❤️
-Ni friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers Ni friend 💙 I'm sorry I've been gone for so long... I hope you see this, or that you will in the future, but either way, I wish you the very best and I hope that you're doing well. *hugs* It does take a lot to be alive, and I can't believe I've made it this far honestly. I think I'm proud of myself too.
I miss you so much, I hope you know I've been thinking of you 💙 Just today I was talking with one of our friends who aged up. Oh I forgot to mention I aged up!!! Anyways, it really has been forever and I can't tell you how much I miss you, I hope wherever you are you're doing amazing, and I have so so so many life updates to tell you about. You deserve the best in the world friend 💙 I hope I'll see you around *hugs*
@aquaaaaa maybe its the adjustment issue? can't really be that though. i wish i didn't have to say this but cups feels emptier without my friends. i know it's a part of growing up but i miss you all so much. there's probably more i can articulate. maybe i'll try my hand at that.
i miss the people on cups i know that are still on here but i can't or haven't seen.
i miss the people who've left cups who might not look back at it. to them i wish them nothing but the best.
i wish i hadn't taken those breaks from when life got too busy. now i've missed everyone and when i came back it was too late. well it isn't too late for a lot of people, but for the cups i knew, for the friends who aren't here anymore.
maybe it's just my own issue dealing with loss. is it okay to say loss even if they're still out there, even if i don't know? either way, i need to learn to live with this. to live with the love i carry for my friends. even if they don't know.
i can probably articulate this better if i wasn't doing something else on the side. I'll come back to this. love you all. 💙
@aquaaaaa i feel like my journal would feel less lonely or empty if i tagged a friend. i don't mind my friends looking into my journal honestly. but for whatever reason i can't bring myself to tag anyone, as if it's something to be ashamed of, that i have to let them wander in. i miss my people.