Dear God (Journal entry)

if i was meant to be alone,

please take away my desire to be loved. because it hurts to crave something that never stays, to keep hoping someone will choose me and mean it. i'm tired of giving love that isn't returned, of pretending i'm okay with being the one who always understands. i just want peace, not this constant ache of wanting to be held and chosen. if loneliness is my path, then at least make it feel less heavy. 🙁💔