Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i always come back. until one day, i don’t.
i don’t even think i want to meet any new people anymore. everyone’s gonna leave one day and i cant *** handle loss.
i actually don’t know how much longer i can take this..
just when i thought it was getting better, i found myself back at the start.
silly me thought i had already met the lowest i can be. i hadn’t.
“alone, again.”
never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough never enough
i don’t have the strength to pretend i have strength anymore.
it *** sucks when someone leaves without a warning and you have no idea if you’ll ever see them again
i don’t really give a *** about me anymore so honestly why would anyone else.