Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i’m like really tempted to try smt.
when there’s so many tears your vision goes blurry lol <3
@justmeeva
🥺😞💜
gonna go.
@justmeeva
…ik it can be hard to but i’m really hoping you’ll be safe… <3 love you eva /p
so i slept 2-3 hours before mom came home. during dinner, she told us (me and my sister) about how she had such a good day. i wanted to cry. i wanted to cover my ears. i wanted to scream “shut up!”. but all i did was stare blankly at the food and eat. and pray that she wouldn’t ask “what about you?”. because i would’ve snapped. i would have.
and there she went mentioning something about my future. start of 9th grade. won’t happen. stop mentioning it.
are you *** kidding me
she said- no stafu
she said she went across some person on the internet who works with students who need help studying or smt and that person had said that the only reason students don’t want to go to school is screens. screens. are you *** kidding me? ever occurred to you that maybe, just maybe, it’s something actually related to school? i’m gonna lose my *** that’s- i’m gonna go.
@justmeeva
…they always say it’s “screens” 🤦🏻♀️
@justmeeva
*offers some hugs* im sorry eva :')
i hate my life and i hate today and i hate tomorrow and i hate the fact that there is a *** tomorrow
man i was so close to getting away of all this ***