Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
the tears aren’t coming from my heart anymore. i’m back to numb, tears just falling. i doubt i have a soul anymore. feels like it’s not there. ***..
why the *** is it like that? why the *** do i feel so *** detached from the world after an either really happy or really sad situation? why do i go numb? what the *** is this? it’s ruining *** everything life’s not worth living anymore
i can’t deal with this anymore it’s not gonna get better it’s only gonna get worse and harder and i’m barely surviving my current life can’t i just be actually okay for once??
no tears coming out of those eyes anymore
i can’t *** do this anymore
happiness isn’t for me. never was never will be.
doing this little first letter of words thing. probably not the last time i’m gonna use it.
tnwir”fitimbs”
idtigtbaml. nshiwelboditiw.
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tired of this ***. really *** tired.
hey mom, just a thought, maybe instead of being mad you should be concerned.
@justmeeva
*sits with you*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
welcome back friend. 🩷
@justmeeva
thank you buddy 💜