From the heart

This may well be my last post here... since God is leading me different way, and this ain´t to be my life. I have to give up that... all of that. And there is something deep on my heart I want to write here.

First, I thank God, that there is place like this... because it is really rare, and you all know it is... you may not believe in God but all you... here.. who care... who have love in their heart, and good will and trying to help others and be light... and be kind... you may not be that far to know Him:) and you make difference, you really do. See... sometimes you dont even know... you meet someone on a street... chat a few words with him, encouraging him... small talk... and to that man or woman or child... it can change the world... it can change his day for the better... do that more.... do not fear... do not fear...  

And all of you, who are struggling here... do not give up... and it is good that u are here... because it ain´t good to be alone. You have scars on your heart... traumas and wounds... struggles in life... but who hasnt? Life is so hard, this world is so dark. You cant be alone. But I tell you... there is hope... it aint cliche. But the thing is... time doesnt change anything... it is your doing, your decision... mixed with time and patience, right? You can beat it, you can get better. It will not be easy... it will be so hard that you will think it aint possible. But come on... be like a soldier... why? Because this world is there to kil you. And soldiers fight... willing to surrender their lives.  There is change. There is a way. I found mine and I believe it is only way for everybody, but you gotta find it for yourself, your own way... but do not give up. You may believe the lies so long that it becomes who you are... and cant see anything else. Dont give up, please. Your life has such value to God, that He lost everything to save you, to have you, to save you... sometimes I think that what we need to be saved from is ... ourselves. Think about it.

I am grateful for this, this time and I love you guys:) 

There is a way. The more I realize... all this time... my life got better, yeah... but the more I realize... that this thing... faith. It is more than just believing something, and praying and reading Bible and going to church and doing good deeds. It is much more. Gospel is much more. You know, my brothers and sisters in Christ what I am talking about. We are supposed to be the light of the world... and are we? Most of us believe ... for ourselves... when God says if we want Him... let us deny ourselves... 

To follow Christ. "Then Jesus said to His disciples, 'If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me." - Matthew 16:24

This is the life. This is the way. It is absolute and complete surrender to God. It is obedience to His Word... it is following Him, walking the light as He is in the light... it is life. Not empty confession. It is not just desire... it is decision of our free will. And it costs everything... it is hard... are you willing? Do you want it?

And most of my life, and still... I realized I dont know God really... I am not true Christian... it is serious. Do we take it seriously? Do we believe seriously? Why are we so afraid? Being double minded... up and down... come on....

Do you know why we struggle so much? Because we are not surrendered completely, we are not willing to follow Christ... to live like He lived... to do what He commands us to do. That is why. That is why.