Vanlifer Nov 12th
Day 40!!!! Of living in my car.
Glad I vented on the sharing circle and support group made me get more clarity and peace of mind. Can't believe I've been at for 40 days
So issues, probably won't be able to drive soon, limited driving privileges may end due to difficulty paying insurance, my insurance is now 700 a month for liability. So that should be interesting, guess I gotta go to court and see what happens. Also my transmission is starting to fail so that also should be interesting with it soon to be winter. Also I'm getting some health issues lately.
Good news, I have a new place that I can move into in 3 weeks! I like a woman who likes me back, like is an understatement. I don't know if it's limerence or if it's just because she does everything right but it feels like live at first sight with this woman. Like Im over talking about corny stuff like her smile lol, but fr her smile is so freaking beautiful, like so freaking beautiful is crazy. I just really want her to be my girlfriend. I already want to say the l word which is wild.. maybe she's a witch who cast a spell on me lmaoo. Idk something about her just feels right all of a sudden. I feel like I don't deserve her and I want to be better so that I change that feeling. I was scared that take too long but someone here recommended being friends first which seems so obvious now. I hope these feelings arent just me distracting myself. So many questions. It's like I'm 16 again weird... and her eyes Jesus Christ this woman is so freaking beautiful. I really want to tell her that but that's too much. I hate limitations man, I hate that I feel like I can't say that because of my financial situation. Whatevs let's keep it positive. I learned something big, I'm learning how to turn disadvantages into leverage, this has been helping me speed up my progress and get out of this mess despite everything going wrong every day. What's got me excited is I can't wait to see my productivity when I'm not homeless. Once I have my core basic resources I'll have so.much leverage that my journey to success won't take long at all. I've been networking this whole time, finding my best work strategy, building projects formulas and business strategies, I just need an apartment. That will cause everything to move 10x faster, I realized that comic books are a passion of mine and very easy for me to make I just need to learn how to draw, theres money in that. I have a software background and a marketing background, so advertising will be easy, also now I know how to actually build the foundation to a business. You focus on the product not marketing this was my mistake when I had a place to live. I had my company but was *** bent on getting clients when I barely had a portfolio. Now I have a network training resources backed by leading companies and most importantly, drive. Dude I'm about to be killing it. I just need an apartment. Living in a car does not work for me it's limiting me.
I guess what I gotta do is focus on sowing these seeds, this girl I like I should be an awesome friend, I should keep up with networking, hit the gym hard, focus on comics since software is hard to do from a car, same with running the llc since I don't have storage for tools. I have so much stuff in progress but I've been trying to do everything the hard way. I've been neglecting myself, and blaming my self neglect on others, which is mean. It's not anyone's fault I'm having a hard time, it's my responsibility to take care of myself, it's time to do better! I needed this self pep talk l.mao
