hi

@RobynTheBird

Diaries are a good way to allow oneself to process and not bottle things up!

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TW: SH

mmmmmhhhhh hi. again. if you've come back i suppose. if this is your first time here, welcome. my day was interesting. we were eating lunch, because it was break, and it got loud so i put on my headphonesss (autism), and my friend (and this other guy that i mostly dislike but i tolerate him because he's like friends with ALL of my friends.) tapped me on the shoulder and was like "hey me and [redacted] were having a conversation about SH and like how if we were to do it where we would and i said anywhere but my shoulders . . . [there was a *** of a lot more but im too tired to type it out and honestly it just gets more and more triggering from there]" and basically i told them to stop talking to me about that, and just stop talking to me in general. because one — overstimulated and overwhelmed already — and two — SH is one of my triggers, along with the fact i've don it before. anyhow. i blasted music for the rest of the day and now i have 5 missing assignments that im going to be staying up all night for. sigh.

also, forgot to mention this, you're allowed to like to show your support/understanding/whatever but please dont respond/reply unless i've either given you permission to. @Amanda84 (just putting this out here, not trying to be rude or get onto you i just forgot to mention it before)

TW: SH

mmmmmhhhhh hi. again. if you've come back i suppose. if this is your first time here, welcome. my day was interesting. we were eating lunch, because it was break, and it got loud so i put on my headphonesss (autism), and my friend (and this other guy that i mostly dislike but i tolerate him because he's like friends with ALL of my friends.) tapped me on the shoulder and was like "hey me and [redacted] were having a conversation about SH and like how if we were to do it where we would and i said anywhere but my shoulders . . . [there was a *** of a lot more but im too tired to type it out and honestly it just gets more and more triggering from there]" and basically i told them to stop talking to me about that, and just stop talking to me in general. because one — overstimulated and overwhelmed already — and two — SH is one of my triggers, along with the fact i've don it before. anyhow. i blasted music for the rest of the day and now i have 5 missing assignments that im going to be staying up all night for. sigh.

also, forgot to mention this, you're allowed to like to show your support/understanding/whatever but please dont respond/reply unless i've either given you permission to. @Amanda84 (just putting this out here, not trying to be rude or get onto you i just forgot to mention it before)

boooo censorss (i didnt even say anything bad)

its only 7 am and i've been reminded of my COSCA. well, the person at least. her mame was lucy. first ever friend i had when i first moved here. she lived just down the street. i had felt really alone until i met her — but then again i was used to being alone by then— since my dad was in the navy. but anyways. she had told me she liked me, things had gotten worse, she continued to get more and more touchy and feely. then things spiraled and thats when it happened. (not going into detail because — one we were like 10 and 11 — but mainly because i dont want to. — also cause idk how much you 7cups people will let me get away with.) but yeah. its wrong to say i miss her. i miss her, often. its usually wednesdays i think. i think that was the day she left? i dont know. maybe it was the day she got here. i still dont know. ok. i think thats all. ALSO I AM GOING TO RIP OUT MY UTERUS

i didnt get any sleep at all last night/tonight i've been up since 4 am yesterday. free me from this *** 💔