∆My confusing dude Journal∆

I realized that people understand things better if there are pretty Images.

so I'm sorry

next time if I talk about books I will put the nice pictures

-an amateur 

YouTube obsession special Comeback🦊

Ok I decided that I will put titles, so I can better organize the things I say 

So I'll start by saying that I didn't do anything today, honestly. 

In the morning I watched yt (yes I'm getting back into the yt obsession period)

I've watched Kendall (yes again) I finished watching (Day 18).

And then some of WhittyNovels videos, She is also doing vlogmas , I've watched Day 14, 15 ,16, 17 - The Day 17 she posted it today, and I was there like a hungry fox yess content yessir 🦊 

I did the workout but not much like 15 min , I was tired since yesterday, bc I work out and then we also went shopping and I had to carry bags around I swear in one I thought they had put an animal carcass inside it was so heavy.

I finally finished watching:             _Agatha All Along_ 

I started watching it in Nov (basically when it just came out) and finished it today,

bc I kind of watched up to episode 6 then I completely forgot about the serie, and it came back to me thanks to a reel on *** with the song.

This series has only 9 episodes , So kudos to me for taking this long to finish It

I love the song Down Down Down the Road , Down the Witches Roooooaaaadd

And that's all for this very productive day RAHHH🦅

Agatha All Along Review 

7/10⭐

I liked it because it was silly

At first I started watching it bc there was an actor I liked (Joe) , But then it started to get to me.

My fav part is the song repeated at least a thousand times (you could also make a drinking game out of it)

Jokes aside I seriously enjoyed Agatha's acting, the actress cracked me up

The thing that *** me off was that Teen seriously didn't remember that he had all those things in his room,(The Wizard of Oz figurines, posters etc.) 

I mean, you don't even know what you own, that seemed a bit unbelievable to me.

Stressful days 

(Updated Repost of 22/12)

Im really stressed and I don't know why 

These days everything is going well so I don't understand what causes this feeling, it's like I'm walking on broken glass, waiting for something bad to happen.

I decided to take a break from my journey (workouts,eating more), I'm trying to gain mass but the last few days (maybe due to stress) I haven't been hungry. 

I honestly got a little 'put out' bc I was doing so well I had just added more calories to my goal and suddenly I couldn't even reach the minimum calorie intake. So I had to lower my calorie goal again.(I switched to maintenance) 

And now for Christmas I've decided not to track my cal, I find it too much and I want to enjoy the moment. 

This had already happened a few days ago and I had already decided not to stress too much about this as it takes time to gain weight. 

So I don't think it's this, also because I've already found a solution, which is to take a break.

Yesterday I didn't write anything because I literally had nothing to say, I was on 7 cups most of the time(reading things on the forum) , watched a bit of yt, and we went to a plant shop, where there was a christmas village (tree decor, balls, lights,strings,decor, nativity scenes) we didn't stay there much bc it was like the 21st and so there were a lot of people, and chaos in general.

And today I've literally done nothing, Besides eating and watching yt,  

I wanted to be at least a little productive now, so I think I'll tidy up my bookshelf , clean my face and wash my hair. 

We were supposed to go out today but then we didn't go anymore, And I was also happy about that bc I woke up late and I had this aura of 'today is going to be an awful day' even when it was just starting.

Maybe I'll update you later, If I do something else 

I did in fact do something else

I've reorganized my bookshelf (again) I never find the right combination.

I must have been sitting on the floor deciding for an embarrassing Infinite of time.

This time I'll try to leave it like this for a while (we believe it) 

And then I was happy that we ordered kebab for dinner.

My mood has improved a little

*end of updates for 22/12*

Xmas is Creeping in🎄🥶

Ok I've been very busy today 

I had to start preparing things for Xmas,

And myself too lol

I don't know why but as soon as I got up I really wanted to read really bad so I started a book

then the fact that I find gay 'crap' even when I'm not looking for it , it makes me giggle (at first I was like how boring they're having a banquet)

Yes I'm talking about the book 

Then I washed my hair (a necessity, they were starting to produce olive oil)

Yes the book has infected me

After a good blow-dry ;)

I had breakfast protein oatmeal, flavor vanilla (If you were wondering until now and were curious)

Then I continued the drawings and I have to finish them by tomorrow, I have so little time!

I always start doing things at the last minute.

And I also started making keychan with the rubber bands (that I had there gathering dust)

I want to give them away (I'll give them as xmas presents)

Well that seems like it's all for today

(and if I forgot something I'll add later)

Additional Notes 

*The book is Symposium by Muriel Spark 

*I never talk about lunch or dinner because I find them boring 

*I forgot to say I did the workout (30 min), I did the upper body (abs and arms) 

[Yes I said I was taking a break but today I needed to let out my nervous energy ] 

*For drawings I mean I'm portraying my cats :p 

Books I need to get

*Updated List*

Vicious - Victoria E. Schwab (Fantasy/Paranormal)

*Wicked-Gregory Maguire (Fantasy)

Mistborn : the final empire -Brandon Sanderson (High Fantasy) 

Flow My Tears, the Policeman Said-Philip K. Duck, (sci-fy/dystopia)

Parable of the sower -Octavia E. Butler (Sci-fy/Distopia)

I who have never know men- Jacqueline Harpman (Literally Fiction/Distopia)

Battle Royale- Koushun Takami (Horror/Dystopia) 

A Dowry of Blood-S.T. Gibson (Horror) 

Piranesi-Susanna Clarke (Magical realism/mithology) 

Song of Achille (mithology)

All the sinners bleed-S.A. Cosby (Thriller/ Mistery) 

*Gone girl-Gillian Flynn (Mystery/thriller)

In the Woods-Tana French (mystery/detective) 

*Beartown-Fredrik Backman (Literally Fiction)

*The wedding people-Alison Espach (Literally Fiction)

*And the line in the middle didn't work, great!

Whatever

Owned books 📚 

✔️Mistborn : the final empire -Brandon Sanderson (High Fantasy)

✔️Parable of the sower -Octavia E. Butler (Sci-fy/Distopia)