TealPhotog’s One line a day journal (thread)
I am hoping this will help me be consistent with some form of journaling. I know it will help my mental health and life in general, but I have never been able to be consistent. Maybe this will help.
T/CW: just in case. I grew up in High control, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually abusive environments. That has lead to a slew of diagnosis on top of the ADHD, dyslexia & PMDD. With that in mind, I can’t always predict what exactly my “One Line A Day” will contain.
If you made it through my above rambling I am open to comments & questions. If you see that I have not posted for the day, please feel free to comment & remind me.
With gentle Compassion,
TealPhotog
I am so tired, I shouldn’t be though, I have slept well!
One day to rest, with no drama or expectations would be so nice!
*sigh* How is it that the one thing that gave me a taste of freedom photography , is now a big thing that keeps me chained mentally?
Depression is still heavy & anxiety stays high, but I am becoming more functional.
How many times will I have to start back at 0 !
The days are like freaking roller coasters, some stability would be nice!
Ok, so that’s weird, today was pretty stable, & pretty good even though I am recovering from an emotional (but good) conversation.
Missed a few days opps, depression & anxiety have been tag teaming me!
“Today something great is goin* to happen” this was how I started my day yesterday getting ready for an early shift, & it wasn’t perfect but it true in several ways :)
( I will list them below)
- Picked 4 extra hours on the clock
- I saw a good friend for the first time in a while & got some closer I didn’t know I needed regarding a situation we were both in.
- a supervisor pulled me aside before lunch to tell me I was doing a good job. ( I kept waiting for her to say “but you need to do better at…” but there wasn’t really anything 🥹 I am definitely not used to positive attention but it felt good to hear it.)
- a manager I struggle with ( I think it’s just personality clash, I hope anyway) was actually really good.
