Gen and tinys secret garden ❤
This garden is reserved for @genericbeing and @tinywhisper11 and mayo😁
@Tinywhisper11 wake up! Wake up!! It's a beautiful day, the sun is shinni.... Oh wait! Crap it's raining, ok false alarm.. Go back to bed
@Tinywhisper11
I think our time is like reversed, it seems to be morning by you when its night by me. And I like the rain, and overcast sky. It's virtually overcast here 24/7, but then again I exaggerate a lot. I'm glad our garden includes mayo, we'll need it. 😄
@genericbeing mayo is my unicorn. Mayo neighs😁😂😂
Yeah we might be in different time schedules, but we can still leave each other messages and talk that way ❤ is it night time where you are now???
@Tinywhisper11 Now it is morning, it was night when I sent the last one. I've never heard of Mayo I thought you meant Mayonnaise lol.
@Tinywhisper11 so how are you feeling today?? Are you having a relaxing weekend??
@Tinywhisper11 I'm feeling hot, its rather hot here.And relaxing? Not really, my house is always very busy. People visit me a lot, almost too often. How are you? How was your day?
@genericbeing I know it's gonna be almost 30 degrees here today😩😩 I can't sit up, without wearing this special designed brace that covers most of my back and stomach, it adds like 574 degrees more on😩😩 ok the 574 was a bit of a exaggeration😁 my carers have been giving me two cold showers a day to try keep me cool.
oh you have a busy house, I like my alone time, don't think I could handle that. But it must be nice being popular, having lots of friends ❤
So yesterday I tried to get from my wheelchair to my bed, all by myself. I thought the best way is to just launch myself, ended up falling just out of the wheelchair, flat on my face. My poor back😂😂😂😂😭😭😭😂😂😂😭 so I spent yesterday suffering, and I think it's gonna be another day of pain😭😭😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 do you live with family members??
@Tinywhisper11 Yes I do, my family's exceptionally large, but not everyone's home. Most
moved, but almost every day we'll have like 10 visitors so its constant
people. I much prefer to be alone too, I even keep odd hours to avoid
people sometimes. But I'm also used to a huge family so having 20 people
over will feel normal and not so overwhelming to me. But I always
prefer being alone, I seem incapable of feeling lonely. I'm sorry about
your back, I have back trouble too from working this job in the past. I
lifted something too heavy and then had to crawl on all fours for a month, it
still acts up on occasion. Falling out of your wheelchair reminds me of when I used to skateboard, I would fall dozens of times a day. I did a handstand on my board once during winter in a cold warehouse and my board slipped out, in slow motion (It felt like) I fell directly on my face/nose with all my weight. That hurt, but the cold ground on my nose probably reduced the swelling, I joked to my friends anyway. At what age did you end up in a wheelchair, if I can ask, what did you do before? Do you miss anything? I miss skateboarding a lot but I feel like I'm too old to be really doing it anymore.
@genericbeing skateboarding looks fun 😁 but dangerous, and probably hard to learn. Your poor nose🙁😂😂😂😂 aww bless you, when you hurt your back, it's so painful🙁 did you do much damage😕? I bet Xmas and other celebrations must be fun in your family ❤ except for the person who has to cook the food😂😂 your never to old for anything ❤
me I um. Ok um my life is one huge trigger warning, so I'll only tell you about my past if you don't get triggered easily ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Skateboard is really dangerous but if you learn to fall right you come
out a tough warrior with great balance skills. My shins are all dented
up from years of falls, you can literally feel dents in my bone, its
cool lol. The damage to my back is probably permanent, I honestly never
had a scan for it. Just a quick look over, but its fine unless I lift
something extreme, I'm even a bodybuilder so that probably helps my
muscle in my back. Yes Christmas is fun but we have like dozens of birthdays a year which is fun but too much cake. You can tell me I'm pretty tough.Or you can just tell me general things if you don't want to. Like your favorite things, things to do, places, people, food, or talents? Idk.
@genericbeing you can feel debts in your bones "shivers* that's kinda freaky😂😂😂 ok well trigger warning.. Slavery..
I was born into a Christian cult, a satanic Christian cult. Children born into the cult were either kept as slaves or sold. I was a slave to 24 adults till I was rescued by law enforcement when I was 18. I'm disabled because of my owners🙁 I'm sorry I know that's a lot to take in🙁
@Tinywhisper11 Oh wow that is shocking, I've heard of things like that my aunts in a cult group, but sorry to hear that. It must have been very hard on you.
@genericbeing your aunt's in a cult group😕 is she safe?
@Tinywhisper11 Yes but they made her give all her money away to them, and her house. Their cult is focused on stealing peoples wealth.
@genericbeing ohhhh that's not good🙁 mine was in the sex industry😥
@Tinywhisper11 :( oh that's upsetting :( well we can talk of other penpal things if you wish?
@Tinywhisper11 Hey I'm curious, is my speech funny because I'm from another country?
@Tinywhisper11 I wouldn't have guessed you were from another country, your speech/spelling words are all perfect ❤ where are you from?? I'm originally from America but now I'm living in the UK
I make A lot of spelling mistakes, so you'll have to excuse me for that. Only I have to type with my middle finger, it's hard, but I'm secretly flipping you all of as I type 😁❤😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 I cl0sedd my eyes wen I typE so I con't see you Fliiiping mi 0ff
@Tinywhisper11 Yas I can spell perfect all the time if I want from writing but I also type uber fast so i still make mistakes from typing fast, I'm from Oz the emerald palace specifically
@genericbeing 😮😮😮 your the wizard of oz😮😮😮😮😮😮
it's Friday😁 Friday is my second favourite F word😁😁😁
do you have any pets???
@Tinywhisper11 theese are my 3 little pigs 😁
@Tinywhisper11 Oink oink, here's my maus'es 
(Not my hands btw I took the picture)
@Tinywhisper11 Friendship is the first 😝
@genericbeing yes friendship of course 😁❤ your little mouses are sooooo cute😍 we are very lucky to have pets. A few years ago I didn't realise that there were so many animals in this world. Growing up I only knew dogs and spiders exsisted. It's just amazing how many animals there actually are😮 there's so much I still need to learn.
are you happy? With your life, I know it's not ideal that you can't go far from your house. But I never leave the nursing home grounds either. But I'm happy, it's like a feeling of being safe and able to relax and do little things that make me happy, I love my life. Just being here. So do you feel like that? Happy at home? Or do you want more?
@Tinywhisper11 I miss going to a few places very badly, I used to be opposite and travel everywhere. I still have my memories of going places, and maybe someday I'll be cured, but some days I really wish I could go places, most days I'm okay I guess. It can get boring. I'm glad your happy, I know what you've been through has been super tough. Its the small things that help you get by I think. I just focus on the stuff I can do so I workout a lot, and read, and became an expert in writing and movies. One thing I like a lot now is garage sales, garage sales are local enough for me to still visit and its always something new. Do you travel short distances? Do your carers ever take you out, even some place not far?
@genericbeing ooo! Garage sales sounds fun ❤ I think their called car boot sales in the uk🙂 one day when I'm braver I'm gonna be a explorer😁 I really want to see the seaside, and a waterfall in the middle of a forest and be in top of a mountain, and go to the zoo, and a Xmas market😁 but they are just dreams ❤ I don't go out at all, except for hospital trips when needed. Writting is a great skill ❤ I love doing art and craft. One day you will be well enough again to go and explore, never give up on hope. It will get better, for both of us🙂❤
@Tinywhisper11
@Tinywhisper11 Are boot sales sales in the trunk of a car? A garage sale is a yard sale, like at someones house.I'd like to go visit a tropical island someday, and live in a foresty area. I know, supposedly if someone confronts phobias they go away I think. For me confronting it helps its go away temporarily then it comes back. I like your guinea pigs, I used to have a gerbil who did backflips.
@genericbeing yeah I've heard that, face your fears and then they will go. But mentally facing our fears is just something that can be impossible. I want to live in a cottage by a little stream deep in the woods away from everything. That would be a dream come true ❤ no harm in dreaming though😁 aww you had gerbils, they are so cute ❤ but apparently they can jump high. When you first had your breakdown, thinking back, was there any warning signs/triggers that might have started it ??
@Tinywhisper11 Yeah I want a forest house away from it all, but near a tiny town so I can still buy things and see movies. Gerbils are just like Asian rats basically but in the dessert they're always on high alert so they're a little like small prairie dogs. Mine did crazy things if you startled him, he'd do flips or jump 3 feet up in the air then run. It died because it eventually ran under someones foot. Kinda, I felt super exhausted if that makes any sense, my anxiety kept taking its total until one day I felt I couldn't fight it anymore, I didn't have the energy or strength. That's when all the bad stuff happened. Starting with vertigo, panic, and sweating. I didn't know what it was so I didn't think I needed serious help, I just layed down in my bed and suffered through it for over a year.
@Tinywhisper11 I'm glad you got help eventually ❤ are you on meds? And in contact with your doctor regularly?? I know therapists isn't for everyone, but do you have one?
Yep! I'd like a little log cabin, with a porch. And a fridge freezer where food magically appears. And some sort of spider repellent cabin😁
I bet you'd miss your family though, being isolated in the woods. What is having a family like? Family love and bonds, what's it like?? Can you trust, and talk to your family? Do you do fun things with them?
I have been diagnosed with a few mental health problems. But I never had a mental breakdown, it must be really hard, bless you ❤ it took me a good year, after I was rescued, to understand what was happening, and to understand that this is the real world, not where I was.
@Tinywhisper11 I was given an anxiety med but found out its really for depression which
is weird because I've never been depressed in my life, I'm usually very
happy. I only have three mode, funny, serious, or anxious. How many
moods do you have? No doctor, I
can't travel to see one. I came here for a therapist, but they are
obsessed with credit cards I have perfect insurance, I'm having trouble
getting a therapist with insurance only. If I had a cabin I might try
growing some of my own food, an endless fridge would be excellent. I
would probably miss them. You can trust family, it nice, crowded but its
like having a small army you can trust who help each other.I don' think I would survive a second mental breakdown, it was worse than death, and I'm not exaggerating. How did you cope with your situation? Did it take long to feel better about it? Is you being in a wheel chair connected to that event? Do you live by the sea or in a city or country? I live by a lake, outside of a city.
@genericbeing how many moods do I have🤔🤔🤔 500 billion😁 yeah let's hope and pray, you never have to go through another breakdown ever again, bless you. Having a family sounds nice ❤ I'm glad they look out for you ❤ no doctor or therapist isn't ideal though🙁 I hope you find a therapist soon.
I live in a valley, it's got a small town about 10 minutes away. River runs through, and a canal on the other side. It's a quiet place. Well it seems like a quiet place, I don't go out so I just go by what I've heard. But in the mornings I can see ducks, herons, and buzzards flying around, and all the little birds too😁 I often spot squirrels playing. So it's a great place to live ❤
yeah I'm in a wheelchair cause of my owners. They were a sadistic cult. The torture methods, sex and how we were kept well most slaves would die very young🙁
@Tinywhisper11 The valley you described sounds rather idyllic, especially with the
canal and animals. I love squirrels, they remind me of rats, and rats
are like little dogs.I like on a little higher plain over a lake that sweeps down towards the water gradually, its mostly houses but some specks of woods. I hope that cults gone now, it sounds terrible. Did they get arrested? Have you ever played video games?
@genericbeing I bet it's pretty living by the lake. Can you see it from your house?
no I haven't played video games before. The people who saved me and some of the other slaves, it was just a rescue mission. So as far as I know, no one was arrested, and the cults still going strong🙁 it's a big cult, they own several places around America, and are very powerful. Apparently this cult is so big it goes up to the government . That's why other countries stepped in to complain and try to help, after footage of some of the bad things they were doing was found in social media😥 but the government, well they won't step in. It's not just America, cults are all over the place, some harmless, some straight from h3ll. But it's all being hidden away from the public eye. And the reason for that, is cause government and who ever don't want people to know😥
@Tinywhisper11 I can see it but I used to ride my bike there a lot, and our water tastes like lake, its neat. I can't believe they didn't get arrest even if it was a rescue mission, that's surprising. But at least you rout of it and safe now. Yes cults are really bad. Hey yesterday I lfet my house a short distance and got to see stores I hadn't seen in 8 months! I went to some stores that were selling Halloween stuff, it was really fun for me. :)
@genericbeing ohhhh yaaay! Well done ❤ did you buy Halloween things?? I would find it fun too, getting to just look at all the cool stuff. But if I ever went in a shop that was selling Halloween or Xmas stuff, I'd have to force myself not to buy everything😁❤ I'm so proud of you ❤❤ a couple of years ago, I bet you'd never have imagined you'd be able to do that. Your doing so well ❤❤ your poem you posted in the other thread, was beautiful ❤ can I ask who it was about? You should post more of your poems, they are really good ❤ have a great day ❤
@Tinywhisper11 I was about a girl I almost married long ago but we split and she changed massively so its over. I was feeling sad yesterday/nostalgic. Yes I did buy stuff! I bought a sweet pumpkin sign that says 'pumpkin season' a number of neat glass phial bottles like old alchemists used with ingredients names on them like bats wings and lizard tongue, and I bought a small chattering robotic crow that just says like 4 things. What I'm shooting for next it to go to this nearby arcade, I live near a mall btw I should mention, I haven't been to this arcade in 5 years about.
@Tinywhisper11 What are your plans for today? :)
