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@RandomKai
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@Sophia7721 hello!
@RandomKai
If ya want to send the songs u can!
@Sophia7721 sent it, what do ya think?
@Sophia7721 here's the song i call "ill"
ill
i don’t wanna be called ill
but i don’t know what else to call it
there’s a reason i’m on pills
sometimes i feel so haunted
and i know people have it worse than me
but that doesn’t help my anxiety
and i know there’s nothing actually wrong with me
but it doesn’t feel like it
i don’t wanna be
ill
i don’t wanna be,
i~ll
i’ve been feeling weak all week, never felt so tired and awake, need a break, but i gotta keep going to self preserve, wake up at 8 but that’s sleepin in, every morning have to think of my reasons, i just wanna feel better but it’s hard not to give in, is it a sin, to want to change everything about myself, within and out, am i ill to doubt that i was born into the right world, the right body and mind? or am i just following the trend of the time? i don’t wanna be blind, wool covering my eyes, you tell me to keep pushing through and i’ll be fine, but that hasn’t worked so far, i swear it’s not a lie, i find, that telling people things is hard, i’ve lost most of my faith in humanity, i have too many scars for me to trust, in insanity, can’t help but think, is this the end of me? potentially, i’m gonna get help, but i need wealth, why isn’t it free? it could free me, from this burden i carry, of the dysphoria and thoughts, dark and scary, like the monster in the closet everyone knows but no one’s seen, maybe i’m just mean, to myself but there’s no other way, i try to be nice but it feels like lies to tell myself i’m amazing at anything, eventually this feeling will go away, right? right?
i don’t wanna be
ill
i don’t wanna be,
ill
@RandomKai
As I thought! A very emotional and well written song! It's very lovely♡
@Sophia7721 thank you i wrote it in about 10 minutes so im quite happy with it :D
@RandomKai
You should be very proud! I wish I could write one line of lyrics in 10 mins haha
@Sophia7721 the site is loading very slow so i posted purpose twice-
@Sophia7721 the one im calling purpose isnt quite done yet but here it is so far
purpose
when i remember my past
i always wish it could last
longer than it did, longer than it did
but when i remember the past
i know i was born again for a reason
born again for a reason
maybe i dont know what it is
and i know im just a kid,
but
when i remember the past
i look to my future
@RandomKai
So far it sounds lovely! I like the rhyming scheme you took with it and the depth and emotion it already has
@Sophia7721 thank you ^^ i appreciate the compliments, my parents arent very interested in my writing so it means a lot
@RandomKai
Ofcc! I think being able to write songs is an amazing gift to have
@Sophia7721 ^^ its honestly one of the only things that has helped me cope consistently
@RandomKai
I'm glad you have smth that helps you
@Sophia7721 me too
@Sophia7721 me too
@Sophia7721 heres the one called purpose, its not quite done yet
purpose
when i remember my past
i always wish it could last
longer than it did, longer than it did
but when i remember the past
i know i was born again for a reason
born again for a reason
maybe i dont know what it is
and i know im just a kid,
but
when i remember the past
i look to my future
@ShapeshiftingSkai
hey howve ya beenn?
@Sophia7721 hey js saw this I had to leave for a while but Im back
@ShapeshiftingSkai
No worries!