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@Sophia7721 here's the song i call "ill"

ill 

i don’t wanna be called ill 

but i don’t know what else to call it

there’s a reason i’m on pills

sometimes i feel so haunted 

and i know people have it worse than me

but that doesn’t help my anxiety 

and i know there’s nothing actually wrong with me 

but it doesn’t feel like it 

i don’t wanna be

ill 

i don’t wanna be,

i~ll 

i’ve been feeling weak all week, never felt so tired and awake, need a break, but i gotta keep going to self preserve, wake up at 8 but that’s sleepin in, every morning have to think of my reasons, i just wanna feel better but it’s hard not to give in, is it a sin, to want to change everything about myself, within and out, am i ill to doubt that i was born into the right world, the right body and mind? or am i just following the trend of the time? i don’t wanna be blind, wool covering my eyes, you tell me to keep pushing through and i’ll be fine, but that hasn’t worked so far, i swear it’s not a lie, i find, that telling people things is hard, i’ve lost most of my faith in humanity, i have too many scars for me to trust, in insanity, can’t help but think, is this the end of me? potentially, i’m gonna get help, but i need wealth, why isn’t it free? it could free me, from this burden i carry, of the dysphoria and thoughts, dark and scary, like the monster in the closet everyone knows but no one’s seen, maybe i’m just mean, to myself but there’s no other way, i try to be nice but it feels like lies to tell myself i’m amazing at anything, eventually this feeling will go away, right? right? 

i don’t wanna be

ill 

i don’t wanna be,

ill