@chostof helloo
@Miljan Hey Miljan. I hope you are doing alright. I feel worried and not optimistic at all about this. Please take care of yourself and I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings in any way.
You matter and deserve the best,
Take care!
@tidyCranberry5039 i dunno where @chostof went......chris im sorry. i think you left. i have my headphones on for the song you wanted to share.........im sorry if i did anything that might have made you feel hurt
You didn’t do anything I’m so sorry, a teacher came up and took my phone, I really hope your asleep though I’m really sorry
Miljan is that you?
I'm really sorry I was banned and I just got my account back I really hope you don't hate me, I feel like it's all over now for some reason
@chostof @tidyCranberry5039
Don’t feel like that, nothings over. A lot happened when you were gone tho and I’m also playing a game so I’m not really on here rn but don’t blame yourself for anything
@chostof can I ask you something? Please be honest, do you hate now? I don't know what I did but I feel like you really hate me a lot. Two weeks ago we were such good friends I don't know what I did or said
You didn’t do anything im just in a rough patch i guess. I don’t know what’s happening or what’s wrong or what’s gonna happen
hii
Sr is ruined because of all the new people that never actually read the rules
Yeah it sucks.
I sometimes go to vent and get made fun of by the same people, you know who I'm talking about. They always cause so much trouble but nothing happens
Miljan are you alright.
Idk
I guess no
You wanna talk about anything @chostof
Kinda @Miljan
I'm here, what do you wanna talk about? I'm worried about you
Forgot to tag you sorry @chostof
Maybe about yesterday
@Miljan
What about yesterday I don't fully remember? Sorry
I didn’t talk about it that’s probably why
Oh sorry I thought you meant something else, do you wanna talk about it now?
I had a pretty bad day, I don’t even remember what happened exactly, but towards the end of it I took a shower, where I spent the entire thing sitting on the ground crying or banging my head against the wall, before I knew it I even sh as well, I don’t know what to do anymore I haven’t known what to do anymore for a while.
I'm really really so sorry that happened I'm not sure how to help with sh but if you ever feel like doing you could talk to me I would gladly try to help. I'm also lost as much as I can be. Maybe it doesn't work for everyone but acting like I'm not lost helps me a little sometimes
How do you go about that
I'm not sure hot to perfectly explain in English but I'll try my best. Kind of like acting cool and important but not that exactly, not the first thing that comes to your mind when I say that. Like lying to yourself that it all makes sense. And I just got an idea, try thinking short term, like just what to do today or tomorrow, nothing else, nothing about getting better or if you see a future and how bright it Is. I hope it all made some sense
There is something severely wrong with this world
I agree
Miljan I don’t want to be in this world anymore to be completely honest. It’s rotten
Really sorry for my late response. I'm not sure what to say exactly, I can't help much with this I'm really sorry. I'm afraid if I say anything I'll make things worse, if you have someone.. more mentally stable here to talk about this I'd recommend that. And I'm really sorry you are feeling like this it's making me really sad
Sorry
It's not your fault I'm stupid, I should be sorry
Don’t be sorry please
I have to, I should try to help you but I know I'll just say something really bad and stupid
I hope you're alright @chostof, I'm really sorry I can't help with this. Ugh I wish I was like yuki
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What's wrong?
I don’t know. I’m really worried about you, I have been, and I just can’t help
You shouldn't worry about me I'm fine enough. You gotta take care for yourself
I can’t take care of myself anymore. Anything I do is harmful no matter the degree
I wish I could help you, I can't with but I believe you can figure it out and get better. You're gonna be fine in the end I promise, you have an amazing life ahead of you trust me
What about you then?
What about me?
I don’t know. I’m worried about you I don’t think your doing alright
You shouldn't worry, it's fine. I just really don't want you to be hurt
What do you mean?
When I do it I just don't want you to feel hurt, that's all. And no need to worry about me
Don’t say that man, I thought you did do it when you got banned, I was hoping not, and I’m glad it wasn’t that, I was worried sick
Can’t we just, get better. Get better for each Other, or even pretend we’re doing good aslong as it makes the other one feel better, I don’t know anymore
I don't want to lie to you and even worse disappear without an explanation. I'm also about to fall asleep so I hope we can continue later and I hope that's fine sorry
It’s alright. Goodnight man love you 💚
hi miljan
Hello, sorry for my late response
Hii I haven’t been seeing you much recently is there a reason why? I’m a bit worried
Im not coming so often idk its stupid. I'm sorry ill try to come more often @chostof
It’s alright, I hope your not doing anything else though
Im not sure what you mean
I think I meant I hope your not doing anything worse then being here, I worry for you
Like lying im better than I am? Or doing bad stuff, like for example making a plan? I'm sorry I'm stupid. Also thank you for worrying it makes me feel a little better, tgo there's no need @chostof
Is there anything you want to talk about?
Can I ask you a dumb question?
Go for it dude
Why am I never happy
That’s a tough question, I really wish I knew the answer to it and how to help you, I genuinely do, but I don’t, I can help you though, help you figure out why, you can get better I know you can.
Eh, there's no figuring it out its just what it is i guess, and i really can't get better. It's stupid to waste energy on trying, I'm just too exhausted
@chostof I'm sorry i said all those stupid things
It’s alright, I’m sorry I couldn’t help more
Don't be sorry. Really, there is no helping me
sorry for the late response, but I think otherwise, I really see something in you, an amazing person such as yourself should be going through this.
Hi @chostof i haven't seen you in a bit is everything alright?
Sorry, haven’t been here much recently i don’t know why, I don’t think it’s helping anymore, here I am now, in desperation for help