Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @mytwistedsoul
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You seem pretty dang awesome, and I'd love to get to know you if you'd like <3 No pressure if you don't... Feel free to ignore if you're not interested <3
I just made a post in "Special Books by Special Kids", about two lovely people with DID <3 Watch it and let me know your thoughts? The video is less than 20 minutes <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 This was actually really nice to watch. It was nice to see how they both understand what the other is dealing with. And how they accept each other and their parts. That they were comfortable with with one another. Thank you for sharing! 💜
You’re welcome! You should really watch more of those videos <3
I saw you posting in the loneliness post. I’m curious… Is loneliness a big issue when you have DID? When there are many alters interacting? Or do you wish for more outside people who accept all of you?
@jesusredeemedme2425 I will. The guy that talked with them was really so open minded and gentle with them
Both actually. It's hard to build and maintain relationships. Well it can be easier to build but the maintaining is exhausting. If there's a bunch of parts and all but one likes someone outside the system, that one can cause problems. Even if they aren't fronting, a part can influence how whoever is fronting acts or even what they say. It's confusing for outside people to have to deal with too. People have been emotionally hurt by us before. The time gaps, memory gaps are hard too. Not just for us but outsiders too 😞
Chris is really sweet. He’ll even hold conversations with people with Locked-in Syndrome <3
Do they often fight? Do your alters co-front (can’t remember the right term)?
Do you sometimes verbally talk to other alters, which confuses onlookers?
Do you use that DID app?
@jesusredeemedme2425 I added some of his to my watch later list but haven't had a chance to watch any yet
Yay! <3
What do they fight about?
Ok, imma need some deets here hehe! What do the littles say???
I think so. How does it work?
@jesusredeemedme2425 It used to be everything. Who was fronting, safety. Therapy was a big one. Some didn't want therapy We have a persecutor that likes to sabotage things. That causes arguments. Arguments over food, drinks, money
Safety?
What exactly is the persecutor’s role? Why does he exist? What would be the equivalent in someone without DID?
I’m sorry WHAT XD Where did that even come from??? Lol
Ooh I bet the poll feature is super helpful <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Some were still in contact with family and people that we need to stay away from
That’s not good.
How would that help?
Oh, then I must be my own persecutor…
@jesusredeemedme2425 It doesn't, that's the problem. But the persecutor thinks they're being helpful and the things they do are often to avoid worse harm. They try to control situations through fear and intimidation of other system parts. With a lot of work they often become protectors
You probably are 😞 If you speak negatively to yourself, have bad beliefs about yourself. We're often our own worst enemy 💜
What do they think they’re doing to help?
Yep… That’s me.
Whatcha been up to lately? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Sorry I've been terrible at keeping in touch. 😞
They seem to think that they'll prevent external harm. Like if they enforce silence, it's because they feel that speaking about things will bring bad consequences. Or if they sabotage therapy it's because they might believe that getting better will make us vulnerable or that it's a threat to our safety. They mean well but it's backwards
All good, I don’t mind <3
I feel like my own brain does that… I get it.
Meh too much work XD
Is Puppy wild?? <3
Ooh what kind of painting?? I’m an artist too <3
Does everyone paint, or just some of the alters?
Meh. Exhausted. Overwhelmed. Sleep deprived. The usual
I just had a breakdown… Sobbing. I’m a mess :’(
@jesusredeemedme2425 Oh no 😞 I'm sorry to hear this. Do you know what caused it or was it just out of the blue? Are you alright? Would you like to talk about it?
Stuff I can’t share, but it’s a lot of things out of my control, not enough rest and me time and silence, etc. Feel like I’m losing my mind from lacking so many things…
@jesusredeemedme2425 I understand 💜 Are there any of those needs that you can fulfill now at this moment? Maybe some you time?
Resting rn. I couldn’t move for about an hour earlier. Not like literally. It’s like my brain and body went into power saving mode. Just used my phone and didn’t move.
@jesusredeemedme2425 All those emotions flooding in are exhausting. Your body and mind need to rest 💜
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hey :) How are you doing? Are you feeling any calmer?
Meh. Climbing the walls. Doing a lot of art tho <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 It's an uncomfortable feeling. I wish I had some ideas or suggestions that would help. I am glad that you're doing art. Do you channel any of your pain into your art work?
Feeling is less now.
Any new art ideas? Like different types? <3
Not a lot, just helps me breathe I guess?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Do you ever work with clay? Or resin?
Yeah it is hard to let it all out even if you try to do it creatively 😕
Thought about it, kinda messy tho. Idk how resin works, but probably way too involved and messy, as well.
I had SUCH a massive breakdown this past week…
@jesusredeemedme2425 You're probably right. I had just seen some small packs of clay at a dollar general, that's what made me think of it. Resin is very messy.
Are you alright? Have you ever made a comfort kit? It's a box or a bag that contains things that bring you comfort. Sensory items, fidget spinners, stuffies, maybe your favorite music, essential oil in your favorite scent. A notebook and pen or pencils, crayons, maybe a handheld game?
Probably expensive too.
Define alright?
No, but I do have fidgets and stuffed animals and stuff. <3
I wish I owned a Switch lol
What’s in your comfort kit? <3
I’m being attacked by a mosquito tonight. HE JUST BIT ME AHHHHH IT ITCHES!!!!! I have like 2-4 welts so far. Can’t tell. Trying SO HARD to smack him, but dude’s a NINJA :( So miserable rn
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm going to answer the first - first. 😅 They have a 2.5 lb container for $6.00.
Sorry, I haven't been around much myself lately.
I guess I'm kinda alright then?
Those sound great <3
Currently scratching another bite lol
Awww I'm so sorry :(
What horse?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Kind of alright is sort of good - I guess? I'm glad you're doing alright
The bugs are really bad this year I think. Here the concern is ticks 😬
We had a horse - Danny. Adopted him a few years ago
I'm apparently awful at responding, sorry! I am SO behind on my notifications...
I remember nothing about what we were talking about, lousy memory sorry, soooo...
How are you doing? Like, REALLY doing? Deep is good <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm just as bad. I open them thinking I'll get to it later and then days pass...
You know, idk. I have moment to moment things. One moment I feel ok and then next I don't.
How are you? Have things eased a little?
Tell me details <3
Whats eased? Lol. I know not that concept. :P
Bad day today. No legitimate reason why...