Just because.
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Just in case you'd ever like to share anything. I might make a "Lego" record player to put next to the piano.
@FormalPsycho do you remember when I told you that you basically brought to light things that I had missed when I was younger in terms of music and such. I watched the Golden Girls when I was younger, I still do now. I was today years old when I learned that the finale is called One Flew Out of the Cuckoo's Nest. Instead of Over. But it's my proof that I legitimately have subconscious ties to what I've learned about you. It's very interesting to think about.
@FormalPsycho It's honestly very interesting to me, it's all the little things I hadn't noticed.
@FormalPsycho Also I know you like Dexter the Bay Harbor Butcher. About 15 minutes. 15 minutes to get there.
I don't remember ever saying that I did, but I do like Dexter, I always admired your intelligence. Almost always you caught on. No one on this side does. Its saddening. You got the stalker in lala Land right. It's abby and I's story.
@FormalPsycho first time I've ever heard a genuine compliment from you. Thank you. Also ofc it was about you two, who else would it be about.
@FormalPsycho it's awkward for you to admire my intelligence when I admire yours. I think you admire mine because I'm gifted, like I have an EP plan, which means the "wires" in my brain run differently.
@FormalPsycho Life experience has gotten me the EQ. Birth and good teachers gave me the IQ.
I miss the teen side. Not much I miss in the world, the change I regret. I'd say you'd be as limerenced as me as I am to abby.
No one here knows how to talk.
I act like I don't care, but some other part of me I would never let you see cares deeply the amount of effort you put in to keep in contact with me.
It's in that genuine way, you gain nothing from it, and that baffles me.
Me and my three, the three of me, its strange to see someone care so much in that way no one else has done so genuine.
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John it's because I'm religious.
I know that sounds awkward, but knowing a lot about Jehovah (which is God's name in the Bible, if you were wondering) makes me act and think differently in life.
Since I was born basically I've learned to love and care for everyone. Also, it's not like I don't get anything. I get to know you.
@FormalPsycho Also limerenced isn't the right word for how I feel toward you. I don't love you romantically. I think that's why you are so impressed, you don't understand how love works. Love comes in many forms. The one I have for you is Agape and I had explained that before. Search Agape you'll understand.
@FormalPsycho has work been alright?
@FormalPsycho I also have a random question and it's fine not to answer. How come you didn't have a stable listener before I met you? I mean you might have but it didn't seem like it.
No one clever was there, or anyone else as willing to listen as you, no matter how difficult I am, you stay.
@FormalPsycho to be honest John, that is because I think and thought of you being difficult as something involuntary, you just are.
@FormalPsycho It's not like you try to be. Plus, that's kind of the whole point of being a listener.
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Also, I'm not really clever John, I just had two braincells to search the lyrics you were telling me. I'd listen to the song and figure out a meaning based on you. I love music, it wasn't too difficult, and I got to hear some pretty good songs which I still listen to every now and then.
I also watched two of the movies you referenced because I don't mind psychological thrillers.
In conclusion, I found you interesting and checked out some of your interests.
@FormalPsycho I am here to reach you about your car's extended warranty. But jokes aside, how's it going?
I bought a new record setup, new speakers, table, receiver, and tape deck.
@FormalPsycho sounds expensive, but also like everything is getting an upgrade.
@FormalPsycho I'm starting to remember things that happened in my life when I was in 6th grade. One particular event that even involved the FBI, not for me obviously. For someone I hadn't known personally. I can't believe I forgot something like that.
@FormalPsycho I feel like there's a couple chunks of my life I don't really remember automatically. It feels so distant, even though it wasn't long ago. I have a before and after in my life.
@FormalPsycho about a month ago or more there was tw/// a college shooting. I had that same day started a project and needed scientific evidence of something so I chose an article from a specific hospital, the hospital happened to be the same hospital those people were transferred to later that day.
I have random things like that happen to me.
I saved people at my school from a shooter, fact I like to keep to myself.
@FormalPsycho I would like to thank you, just in case they didn't. I hope to act like you in that regard. I've always hoped I'd be brave enough to do so.
@FormalPsycho I admire that about you.
@FormalPsycho If I am honest, every now and then I have a dream that a school shooter is actively trying to kill me, I somehow always live though. It's always at my old school. I don't even go to school physically anymore. It's an awkward dream to have.
@FormalPsycho I'm sorry I forgot the Trigger Warning.
@FormalPsycho I would like to ask another question that you in no way need to answer. Did you ever leave me a written review? It just popped into my head, so I thought I'd ask. I don't know why.
Long ago I believe so, it was under some acronym in a jolly tone.
@FormalPsycho "an acronym in a jolly tone", sounds like maybe it's the one that states "Pretty Understanding" because well if you say the first letter of each out loud, and you are childish like I am, you'll start to laugh. XD
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I would like to point out that you are more than free to talk about your day or anything you find interesting. I'm always here to listen, add to the conversation, make you want to pull your hair out. You know, the usual.
I want to have good conversations with you, but it is difficult when I don't know what you are actively interested in, it seems to change every now and then.
Then again, you've changed to. I would like to know this version of you.
@FormalPsycho Is it okay for me to ask you to tell me more about your interests?
It's more than fine, there just isn't anything useful to know. I started working as a mechanic, I have a pretty coworker. Every time I see her I feel guilty for finding her attractive. Then again, I went to this Boston fast food place, order a rueben. There's never any business there, it just opened. The lady who handed me my food was also pretty. I would've asked for her number, but I need to see her more.
@FormalPsycho Well actually, that's very interesting.
First off, I'm very happy you've found beautiful ladies to stare at, as weird as it sounds. XD You can't necessarily control who you find attractive John, I think there's no need for the guilt.
Also, the job seems tough physically but cool mentally.
I am however wondering why you gave me so much information about the location? Now I need to fight the urge to figure out it's existence. XD
Also no wonder you once showed off a comfy looking gray sweater, you have a use for it.
@FormalPsycho May I ask why you think so little about your day to day life?
@FormalPsycho little in terms of unimportant.
Is there a way to check forums I was tagged in? Some message I saw for me, started with "In case you were wondering"
It was from something tigerlily
Unless that was you, I need to find that message.
@FormalPsycho it was me sir, no need to worry.
@FormalPsycho I would like to apologize, as you know there are certain rules about certain things.
You have every right to reach me here, not there.
I thought it was from someone from my old ward sharing the memories we had shared.
@FormalPsycho That's why I apologize dearly John. I will be using that one more often.
@FormalPsycho The account I mean, that's why I created another thread.
I see, text me there then.
@FormalPsycho If it is any consolation I feel terrible, I really didn't mean to harm you in any way John. I do understand however that the harm is already done.
Cheap trick, give me a day.
@FormalPsycho I knew you'd reply that way. I really do care about you, and you know that. That's actually the whole reason I made another thread in the first place. I will give you the space you requested.
@FormalPsycho It's officially been 24 hours, which makes it a day. I've given you the time you asked for. Now, I want to explain myself.
I didn't mean to make you feel any sort of way with what I said, rather I wanted you to know that I am not happy with what I have done. That it does affect me to have hurt you, and that I am truly sorry. It is awkward though that after all this time you have yet to know my intentions. I apologized because I meant it. I have no reason to make a fake apology. Everything I say, I mean. You know this, just like you know I care about you. Just like you know I don't mean to hurt you, because I have never purposely done so.
@FormalPsycho what I was trying to explain is that I am in no way happy to have hurt you.
@FormalPsycho Hi, John. I hope you are doing well. 💜
@FormalPsycho XD I just realized you're legitimately a Taylor Swift song. Dear John somehow makes sense.
abby knows she is my green light across the bay.
@FormalPsycho How was your day, John?
@FormalPsycho Do you remember how The Great Gatsby ends?
@FormalPsycho I have come to the conclusion that the guy I like has to like me too, either that or he hates me intensely and there's no in-between. Instead of a green light situation, he stares at me from across the room, while holding this heavy mic.
It's actually so frustrating to know he's looking at me but I have to try to look away from him and pay attention to his father, because of all people who could be asking questions, it's his father.
Then after it's all done his mother is talking right behind me loudly with a group of people about how he'll eat anything, and how her son volunteered to make pancakes for her. XD
@FormalPsycho I wanted to tell you that Emma says "Hi".
Gatsby dies, shot by the man whose wife was murdered by Gatsby's lover. I post stories hopping she sees my green light, the longing I have for her to return. Im so sad
@FormalPsycho I'm here to listen John. Always have been.
@FormalPsycho Daisy chooses Tom, John. She lets Gatsby take all the fall for the murder.
@FormalPsycho What I mean is, you might want to consider pursuing a relationship with someone who loves you as you love them. Someone who isn't afraid to show it, who cares about you enough to talk things out and think things through. (Not someone who doesn't make up their mind, and crushes you in the process.)
Think of it as when Gatsby went to war, she hasn't choosen anyone yet. Thats why I must gain my claim to fame, a real glamour profession.
@FormalPsycho You wouldn't be Gatsby if you didn't lose her. In hindsight you should've chosen another story.