Ni and Eva Safes Talkie Corner 💕
@justmeeva
hi evabuddybeanie 💕 hehe. i hope you get this tag 🥺 me realised our conversations are sort of all over forum-land xD and if eva friend is comfy ^-^ we can have our own talkie corner? only if your okie with it 🤗💜 sometimes i think rooms not always comfy to talk about things :') sometimes forum-land is a bit comfier 💙 or idk - maybe i'm wrong xD that's just a thought. 💜 hehe.
for hooman beans other than evabuddybeanie, please don't post here, unless your me or eva 💙 and please don't read or lurky lurk here because it's our talkie space. 💜 thank you for understanding ^-^
🌙 ni friend 🌸
@LoveMyMoonflowers
miss you but keeping you in my thoughts 🩷
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it feels pretty lonely here without you, you know..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
welcome back <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i’m sorry that’s not at all how i wanted to welcome you back i probably made you regret coming back i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry
@justmeeva
*hugs you tightly* oh no buddybeanie not at all, not at all. 🥺 you didn’t do anything wrong i promise. i promise. 💜 you’re always so sweet and caring and mmm me just don’t know what to say or how to say anything :') …. thank you. 💜 for being you and for being my friend. my amazing friend 💜 and twinsie 💜
you don’t have to be sorry okie? 🥺 me loves you. *huggles tight* if i disappear again for a bit… it’s not your fault ok? i didn’t leave because of you ok? 💜 not because of you 💜 i just… idk. i genuinely dk tbh. but ik i didn’t leave because of you. 💜 ni friend kept you in her thoughts 🥺
keeping you in my thoughts now too. your post was… 3 hours ago. 😞 i hope you’re safe evabeaniiee 😞 i love you 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
thinking of you.. 🩷
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*thinking about you pt2*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok ok it’s a break, that means you didn’t leave right? you’re coming back right? you’ll be okay.. right..? i’ll see you again… right…? right..?
well aren’t i quick to overreact. …
@justmeeva
on a partial break, currently…
:')
i’m sorry eva… i’m not a good friend. i’m a *** friend. a horrible one. i’m sorry…
i just wish everyone here would forget me forget everything about me everything that has to do with me and move on…
i wish they would get on with it all… replacing me, forgetting me and moving on…
idk. i’m stupid. and talking nonsense, probably.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
how could we..? you’ve given so much to us, to me, all the support and kindness and love and memories.. that’s not something you can forget just so easily. and i don’t think i’ll ever forget you. like, ever. you’re such a big part of my life, you’ve helped me through such hard times, that’s just insane ni.. been there when nobody else was. how do you forget someone like that?
@justmeeva
:')
i typed my answer but deleted it because mmmm…. :')
#NiIsAnOverthinker
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no no no ni, that’s the thing. why do you think i care so much about you? because you’re the best friend one could ever ask for. i mean it. your life and the way it goes, it’s not your fault. it’s really really hard and it makes sense you’re exhausted of it. but you’re not even nearly a bad friend. nuh uh. nothing will change my mind about that 🩷
@justmeeva
i think i’m a bad friend…
i wish i was there was eva bean when she needed someone to be there… 😞 i wish…
:') i just disappear and come back and disappear and come back cos ima ***
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no, not because you’re a ***, but because you’re having a vv hard time. you can’t always be here, and it’s okay ni. i understand it. i can’t always always be here either. i have disappeared too. it doesn’t make you a bad friend or a bad person. and when i think of all the time you have been here.. it’s a lot. and i’m really really happy and thankful about that. i won’t ever be mad at you, or disappointed, or think you’re a bad friend because you have your own life and your own challenges. it’s not your fault. believe me, i understand it. you don’t have to explain anything to me, i know life is hard, especially for you. but you’re doing great tho.. even if you’re not being great, you’re still here and that.. is a huge accomplishment. i’m proud of you friend. i hope we can keep trying together, even if we have some bad days. i believe in you 🩷
@justmeeva
i saved this because me thinks it’s a much needed reminder :') ni friend is pretty sure brainie won’t be saving this :') *smh brainie* 💙 but i’m keeping these words for later. 🥺💙
also i’m so sorry for the late reply i feel so bad for replying so late to everything 😭
brainie won’t be saving this on its own me means*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i’ll just talk here, that way you can absolutely ignore me if you want and still vent in your space without me taking it over and- idk. anyway.
in response to your “right?” i would’ve instantly said “wrong” (in a lh way ofc), but then, i started thinking.. not that i have lost hope or belief in you, absolutely not, but i know what you mean. i know what you might feel. now, more than ever, i know what it feels like. that’s why i didn’t respond.. because idk if i can change your mind. convince you. especially if you’re down so deep.. it’s like your brain just ignores any hope at this point, makes you think there’s none. i understand. it’s not your fault. i started thinking about what to respond, and i thought about whether it would help me if i was in that situation or not.. and to be honest, i’m not sure what to say. i could say all those pretty words about you that i genuinely mean, but i don’t think they would help. i could find something for motivation, but i don’t think anything really works when you’re really not okay. so i’ll just say.. i love you. and i need you. literally just you s i t t i n g with me helps. you know why? because you’re you. you understand me, you’re so freaking kind to me, just having you next to me helps so so so much. i still want you if you’re too drained to be supportive to others. i’ll still choose you no matter what. i’ll always love you no matter what. that won’t change. and i’ll be here if you need me. and with all my heart and soul and everything i have, i hope to see you again tomorrow. and many days after that. you’re special to me, always will be. ❤️
@justmeeva
this made me tear up 🥺
there are still good, beautiful people in this world. :') and these same good, beautiful people who care, who understand, who choose to love, who choose to create precious memories, who choose to hold the hands of their friends even when their friends are falling and falling and falling and falling, wondering when the end will be… wondering where the falling ends, where the hard, cold ground begins .
amid all the wondering their friend is there holding their hand :') and that means the world.
these… friends… these people exist. they have hearts and they love and they care and they see beauty. you’re one of them. 💜
i guess there’s still hope in this world, then…. eva beanie brings hope into this world, and light and beauty and kindness just by being herself.
i don't love me i guess. i can’t, i have my ‘reasons’. perhaps they can be disproved… perhaps. but i still hate me.
i know you don’t love you either… it’s hard… to love oneself. but i love you lots. so freaking much… and i’m grateful your my friend. i’m grateful for you more than you could ever imagine… so thank you. thank you for writing this, even though you told yourself you didn’t know what to say, you said exactly what i needed to hear. so thank you… thank you so freaking much.
thank you for being my friend and for being in this world. you mean so much to me, and you mean so much to this world.
(this is me talking about life and people i love. i’m in a ranting mood today.)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah, loving oneself is really hard. but maybe.. we don’t have to, yet. maybe, for a start, we can just try to accept that someone else does love us. it’s different, right? i think that learning that we’re still lovable by others, even if we hate ourselves, is an important step. i love you, because i can’t name a single flaw about you, however the good things about you.. countless. idk, you’re just the best. 🤷🏼♀️🩷
no matter how many times you might give up on yourself, i’ll never give up on you. i’ll still be with you through rain and sun and heaven and ***. i don’t have to do that, but i choose to. because that’s the least i can do to keep that little light in your world shining. i can’t take away the darkness, but i can bring a little more light. and i will. i’ll try. because you deserve it. 🩷
@justmeeva
awwe evabuddybeanie 🥺💜 “no matter how many times you might give up on yourself, i’ll never give up on you. i’ll still be with you through rain and sun and heaven and ***. i don’t have to do that, but i choose to. because that’s the least i can do to keep that little light in your world shining. i can’t take away the darkness, but i can bring a little more light. and i will. i’ll try. because you deserve it” ~ a little more light…? 🥺 nuuuuu friend you bring so so so much light, me thinks, not just to my little world but me thinks, to this world in general 💙 just by being my friend, by being here, you bring so much light. and it makes things brighter, of course :') but also warmer and kinder, and less lonely. <3
*doesn’t have that many words because these two paragraphs you wrote that day have literally m e l t e d me* 🥺 i need words lol.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
(when i said 'you deserve it', you just proved my point right here 🩷)
*hugs you* (:
@justmeeva
#BrainNotBraining
proved what point… where? 😅 i’m sorry i’m so dumb lol my brain nuu able to comprehend that somehow? 😭😭 what the heck Nii 😭
i’m confused i’m so silly omg 😭😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
tyt and read your post through again lmao xDD
@justmeeva
lmao 😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
@justmeeva
*has an ohhhhhhhhh moment*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
that cracked me up 😭🤣
@justmeeva
awwe me glad it did 🥺
i can’t focus much :/ somehow i’m not in the studying ✨ mood ✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers
✨then don’t and spend some time with your wonderful friend ~eva~✨ (that’s like the worst advice ever but the idea is good yk✨)
@justmeeva
i agree 😎✨ i mean we don’t like studying we like cupsing so much more wholesome and relaxing :o (most of the time…. except when there’s conflict in rooms but that’s another story @_@)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i have(ish) to go for like 30 min or so tho, we could do a 30min cups break to do whatever we need to and see where it gets us :0 😏🤔
@justmeeva
nope i’m probably not gonna study for a few hours lmao 😭😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
smhh but then you gotta sit here without me 🤷🏼♀️ /lh /j
@justmeeva
don’t leave me 🥺🥺😭 /lh /jk
@LoveMyMoonflowers
set a timer or something xD /jh
/hj*-
@LoveMyMoonflowers
god how much i wish i could give you to longest hug ever irl right now.. 😞🩷
@justmeeva
me too.
:') 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i’m partly back, cooking (: 🩷
@justmeeva
i’m late T^T *reads the other replies in this thread* :o