Ni and Eva Safes Talkie Corner 💕
@justmeeva
hi evabuddybeanie 💕 hehe. i hope you get this tag 🥺 me realised our conversations are sort of all over forum-land xD and if eva friend is comfy ^-^ we can have our own talkie corner? only if your okie with it 🤗💜 sometimes i think rooms not always comfy to talk about things :') sometimes forum-land is a bit comfier 💙 or idk - maybe i'm wrong xD that's just a thought. 💜 hehe.
for hooman beans other than evabuddybeanie, please don't post here, unless your me or eva 💙 and please don't read or lurky lurk here because it's our talkie space. 💜 thank you for understanding ^-^
🌙 ni friend 🌸
@LoveMyMoonflowers
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i’m sorry for scaring you like this. i’m here. we can talk if you want, i’ll have just another long night so i have time. i’m sorry.. …
@justmeeva
aww eva beanie you don’t have to be sorry, it’s okay… 🥺 hugs if okay…?
…i’m sorry, me not sure if me has… mmm. words right now. i’m sorry.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs you and doesn’t let go*
it’s okay, i understand 🩷 but i’ll still be here okay?
@justmeeva
mhm 💜 hugs tight
@LoveMyMoonflowers
you can come to me whenever you want or can <3. *keeps hugging*
@justmeeva
keeps hugging vvv tight
i’m sorry friend, me has to poof now because it late ish here… :') me will talk to you tomorrow…? try to be safe mhm…? we can try…?
me loves you so much friend, always. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it’s okay, i hope you’ll be okay 🩷 mhm, we can talk tomorrow <3 pillow eva is always there for you (: even if cups eva can’t be <3
i love you too, more than you know. really. ❤️
@justmeeva
🥺💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@justmeeva
💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sits here quietly*
@justmeeva
*huggies you if okie*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*huggles you* 🩷 hi
@justmeeva
hi friend 💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers
how’s my friend been today? :0 🩷
@justmeeva
ni friend fine, friend… how’s you? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hmm, okay.. *hugs a little tighter* 🩷 i’m.. the same i’ve been lately, whatever it is lol. and tired, in different ways. but it’s okay 🩷
@justmeeva
*keeps hugging* i’m sorry friend, me sorry life is so hard and meanie and unfair… 😔💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*keeps hugging more* it’s okay, my cupsie friends, very much including you, make it a little easier 🩷
@justmeeva
💜 i’m glad. 💜
you always make things better and brighter, too, eva beanie. 🥺 eva friend makes the world feel …a little less lonely. 💜 /gen
@LoveMyMoonflowers
this is such a sweet thing to say 🥺 *huggle wuggles you super tight (not too tight) and super long* 🥺🩷
@justmeeva
eva your literally always showing everyone so much love, and sending so many hugs, and leaving them such kind, heartfelt notes 🥺😭😭😭 (somehow there’s more i wanna say but idk how to put it into words so i’m just gonna… *infinite huuuuuuuuuuuuuuggg* 🫂)
you absolutely deserve every kind word you receive 💜 for being you. 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
✨ when words fail you, there are always gifs.✨
@justmeeva
my gif thingy isn’t working rn :/ it glitches and does that sometimes, i can use it once, and then it doesn’t work for a while 😭😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
oml cups is really not cupsing today smh 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️
@justmeeva
ikr 🤦🏻♀️😭😭😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hi love 🩷 how are you? everything okay?
@justmeeva
hi friend 💕 mhm, everything okie me thinks 🤷🏻♀️ how’s you…? 🥺 /nfta 💜
*hugs you if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i hope it’s still so 🩷 i’m a complete mess but it’s okay. 🩷 *hugs you*
@justmeeva
*hugs tight but not too tight* me here if you need okie…? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm 🩷 *hugss* me’s here too 💕
@justmeeva
*keeps hugging*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*doesn’t let go either*
💕🩷💕
@justmeeva
me sorry, ni friend a little quiet now :') but me still here 💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it’s okay, i’m kind of in and out anyway 🩷
*sits in our wonderland*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*quietly joins you*
@justmeeva
*gentle huggie attack if okie*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
always okie 🩷 *huggle wuggles*
@justmeeva
@LoveMyMoonflowers
everything okay with nilovely?
@justmeeva
mmm, idk, how’s you <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
does ni wanna talk about anything? or can me do anything? i’m okay right now i think, it’s not so bad atm <3
@justmeeva
no friend it okie <3 im just tired i think. idk.
*hugs* i hope the rest of the night will go okie for eva friend… 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
okay, i’m still here if you need anything 🩷
thank you, i hope it’ll be okay for nibuddy aswell 🥺🩷 *keeps huggling*
@justmeeva
*keeps huggling back*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni love i want you to be honest with me 🥺 you don’t have to hide or deny it when you’re not okay 🥺 because i want you to be okay, i want to help you and do anything i can to make you feel even just a tiny bit closer to okay 🥺
nfta this at all but just know, you can talk to me, i’m here ❤️
@justmeeva
huggies you 💜💜 your so sweet smh 🥺 how can a hooman being be so freaking caring 🥺 friend me not okie because me kinda mmm… :') :') idk how to explain it 🤷🏻♀️ lots of things going on at once and it’s nighttime and i’m just tired. 💜 and ni friend just don’t feel v okie :')
i’m sorry that was kinda a lot 😭 and it didn’t make sense either 😭 (ni = the master of incoherence)
…but thank you eva bean <3 this note was v sweet and idk 🥺 me appreciate you so much friend, for caring, for just being you <3 me hopes you know i’m here too 🥺
wuvv you so much 💜💜 huggiieeess
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it’s okay, i hear you love. 🩷 some days all kinds of things or thoughts come at once, some days nothing specific might be wrong but it’s just the feeling like something is. and sometimes it’s something entirely different. or something in between. but whatever it is, you can get through it 🩷 i believe you can, because you’ve done it before 🩷 you’re stronger than you might believe, stronger than you might feel right now. but everything will be okay 🩷
eva friend loves you so so so much, and sends some vv warm and comfy hugs to you 🩷
@justmeeva
*keeps hugging tight* 💜💜💜
(but not too tight)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@LoveMyMoonflowers
you had a rough night huh.. 🥺😞 i’ll be here waiting, and when you come back, you’ll be welcomed with some safes eva huggles 🩷 love you so much friend 💕
@justmeeva
*safe ni huggles for you* wuv you so vv much too. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm.. i think.. idk
i’m sorry
@justmeeva
*hugs* you don’t have to be sorry for anything. <3 …if eva bean goes ill miss you lots friend. more than you can imagine. and me v sure eyes friend and nadia friend will miss you too… if you go we’ll wait for you to… come back someday. 🥺
i should be sorry friend me don’t really know what to say 😔 me sorry me not been a v good friend ):
(7cups wouldn’t let me make the text white *smh cups*)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no no no ni i can’t have you believe you’ve been a bad friend 🥺 you’re the best friend anyone could ask for, and everything you say is just another proof of that 🥺
i want to leave.. i desperately want to leave.. and i don’t mean cups. but i don’t want to leave you.. i don’t want to leave you alone.. you’re the reason i have second doubts about leaving, the reason i’ve stayed for as long as i have 🩷
if anything, the i’m the bad friend. but idk. i really don’t know.
@justmeeva
…tbh, idk, i think i get what you mean. it’s like… leave-leave mhm…? :') …i know life is hard for you eva <3 and tbh i think the word “hard” would be an understatement. you’ve been fighting hard and long 💜 you’ve been hurting, and even though you have friends here and we talk to you, it’s still all online… it’s not exactly the same… it’s not the same as irl. you’ve been hurting 💜 and you’ve dealt with things on your own. me knows life is so freaking hard, and it’s v exhausting, and it makes us want to leave because tbh, after a while of all the ***, the *** at home combined with the *** at school combined with the *** that goes on in our heads… just life. after a while we just want to leave. :') …me understand that. i think.
forgive me if i didn’t get what you meant by ‘leave’ and i misunderstood you entirely :') i’m sorry. 💜
…friend your not a bad friend. you just need to have a peek at the pages in this thread <3 at some pages in my diary thread, at some pages in the corner, and in some other threads and there’s proof your not a bad friend. the same way you told me there’s proof i’m a good friend. your an amazing friend too <3 your eva, an irreplaceable friend. 🥺
i’m sorry…
i wish i could make things better in your world but idk how 😔 this is when being so far away sucks so much because there ain’t much i can do, i wish i could do more. i’m sorry.
…i’m sorry.
*hugs*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah.. that kind of leaving.. i’ve just *** everything up with school, i’m done with my classmates, with being alone all the time, with the self hatred that makes it *** to be around literally anyone, all the memories that haunt me, all the flashbacks, the way anything near happiness leaves me with a feeling i can’t explain.. that’s not a life. not a good one anyway. in the future, it would all just get worse. harder. i’m not strong enough to manage that.
but none of that is your fault. far from that. you’re one of the only good things about this life. about my life.
i gtg for some time- but i’ll come back. you have nothing to be sorry about. nothing. *huggles you*
@justmeeva
i hear you. i really do. 💜 i’m not you, i don’t know what it’s like, exactly, to be you, i’m not in your shoes. so i don’t understand everything. but i know what that’s like. wanting to leave, because everything is too much. because everything feels too much, too much, too much, way way way too much. I wish you had someone there irl to sit with you, to be there with you, even just to sit in silence, maybe sometimes to listen, to somehow ease your burden. Our parents are supposed to be doing this for us… to guide us a little, to try to be there for us. especially during our teen years, but i know for most of us our parents do the exact opposite :') they aren’t here for us… 😔 mmmm. :') And me knows the irl-friend thing is another thing that’s… mmmm. 😞💜
Friend… 🥺 I really wish i could make things better. I really wish life wasn’t hard. it’s so hard. it’s so tiring, i know, i hear you, me understand you want to leave, because - idk - it feels like maybe your brain has already convinced you that’s the only way you can have peace? Because this life… it’s so not… mmm. Peaceful. :') But friend, me has to disagree with one little thing you wrote here… we can agree to disagree friend 💜 you are v strong. Like me said before you been fighting long, and you been fighting hard, and it ain’t been easy at all. Not at all. you’ve shown resilience and bravery and strength 💜 and you’ve pointed it out in others (including me). It’s Eva friend who has told Ni friend so many times that she’s stronger than she thinks she is, but friend, me being honest, it’s true for you too. 🥺 Your here 💜 your existing now, and it might feel and seem messy and painful and hard, and life is messy, and it’s painful and it’s hard. But your here and your existing now and there’s so much strength in that, and there’s so much resilience in that, and there’s so much bravery in that even though you might not see it, because it’s hard to see things like that in yourself when all you really want for yourself is… to leave. :') Your brave, and your strong, more than you know, and it’s beautiful. 💜
Ik it’s hard to imagine that things can get better because for so long you’ve only watched yourself get worse and worse. :') you’ve watched yourself hurt, and get hurt. 😞
:') Sometimes I wish words could grow wings 💜 but yk… my words are just words. I wish they could change situations but they can’t. I wish, i wish, i wish… :') :')
I’m sorry idk what to say 😔 I just hope you know i love you so much and i care about you more than you know. and i’m not the only one who loves you and cared about you. Without you this world would be lonelier and emptier and harder and darker… 😔 I wish I could make you stay but i know staying means getting more hurt too because life is just downright mean. :')
…Idk. *Huggles tight, but not too tight*
cares* not cared my stupid typos
@LoveMyMoonflowers
that’s something that’s so valuable about you. the way you understand. your empathy. might seem normal but it’s so rare in this world. you have such a pure heart. all the “i wish”es. you know.. i wish too. but i also wished to have a friend who would genuinely care about me. and here you are. online, sure, but it’s absolutely better than nothing, anytime. you’ve taught me so much, about friendship, love (/p), mental health, supporting others, and so so much more. you’re a treasure that can’t be found just anywhere, you’re one of a kind.
your words do make a change. words have so much power. they can do so much damage.. but also so much healing. you wrote all this and say you don’t know what to say? friend you explained everything the way it is. everything was right. everything was beautifully written.
i love and care about you too, so much. that’s why it’s all so hard. that’s why i don’t know either.
*hugs you back and doesn’t let go*
🩷
@justmeeva
*doesn’t let go either* 💜 idk it’s like you feel like you have a million reasons to leave, the fact that life is just too much… and then there are those tiny things that still keep you here. idk :') that tiny tiny tiny flicker of hope, somewhere.
I’m sorry if i went a little too far or said something wrong friend 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no, exactly the opposite actually. 🩷
@justmeeva
💜
@justmeeva
me will reply when me can friend me not in the best headspace rn but it not bad <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
of course 🩷 here if you need anything mhm?
@justmeeva
mhm 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
you here somewhere?
@justmeeva
eva friend 🥺 me so v sorry me wasn’t there yesterday ): and me late here too 😔 huggiiies you if okie
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it’s okay dw *hugs tight*
@justmeeva
*hugs v tight but not too tight*
:') ik it’s hard to be here but i’m glad your here.
:')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah, surprise :D :/
but at least i have you, that’s good <3
@justmeeva
🥺 :')
