Ni and Eva Safes Talkie Corner 💕
@justmeeva
hi evabuddybeanie 💕 hehe. i hope you get this tag 🥺 me realised our conversations are sort of all over forum-land xD and if eva friend is comfy ^-^ we can have our own talkie corner? only if your okie with it 🤗💜 sometimes i think rooms not always comfy to talk about things :') sometimes forum-land is a bit comfier 💙 or idk - maybe i'm wrong xD that's just a thought. 💜 hehe.
for hooman beans other than evabuddybeanie, please don't post here, unless your me or eva 💙 and please don't read or lurky lurk here because it's our talkie space. 💜 thank you for understanding ^-^
🌙 ni friend 🌸
@LoveMyMoonflowers
talk to me friend what’s wrong? what happened? i know i’m really late but
@justmeeva
hi…
idk what to say tbh. i'm just sorry. i know that doesn’t explain anything.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
is it someone on cups? was there an incident? is it you, some feeling or thought? i don’t want to pressure you but want to understand lovely
@justmeeva
it's just me.
😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
but you know how much you’re loved here, right? genuinely actually loved, by me and so many others. how much you’re wanted here, how much people care about you, how much i care about you?
@justmeeva
<3
i'm sorry
@LoveMyMoonflowers
but you’re one of my best and first friends ni
you’re my twin and fellow cheering bear
whatever your brain is telling you, don’t believe it
@justmeeva
i don’t know what to say…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
do you really want to go? or is it something related to others’ opinions, like you don’t belong or deserve to be here, or like you’re not cared about or wanted? or is it something painful about cups that feels like it’s doing more harm than good?
@justmeeva
kind of all three.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
..well.. you have to believe me that i care about you, more than you probably think. and i know, i know, that i’m not the only one who cares about you like this
..if you think, that it would do good for you, to be away, then.. i’d understand. if it lessens any hurt, i’d understand. but if it’s feeling unworthy of being here or feeling not cared for, that’s so not true. i’d hate to think about you and not know if you’re okay. i’d hate to not give you any more hugs. i’d hate to not even have the chance to change anything for you, make a fraction of something better. i’d hate to be without you.. and have you be without us, without me..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i won’t let you go that easily
can eva friend check her tags…? i'm so sorry friend. i feel terrible :( hugs if okie…? @justmeeva
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs very tight and doesn’t let go* thank you 💗🫂
@justmeeva
hugs. <3 love you. 💙
tw, just in case 💙 ni friend mentioning what happened last night in eva friend's diary corner.
hi friend 🥺 i didn’t read what happened in your diary space until now… :( i think ik what you mean by the darkness and the fear the night causes tbh. especially with feeling like someone is there behind/near trying to do something, it’s hard in the dark sometimes. it happens with me too at times so me understand… :') i'm glad soul friend was around then 💙 was eva bean able to get any rest at all? 🥺
(i hope i didn’t trigger you or anything like that by reminding you of what happened…)
wuv you 💙 @justmeeva
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah i got some rest, i woke up like five minutes ago so- 🤧😬
i’m glad soul was there too 🩷 and it’s completely okay that you weren’t lovely i don’t blame you or anything 🩷
how’s ni friend feeling right now?
wuw you 2 💕💗
@justmeeva
hehe that’s okie 💙 idk if i’ve told you this before…. but there have been times i woke up at like 3 pm or 4 pm or 5 pm 😭 seriously lol. ik sleep can be so confusing and weird and messy :') sleep itself must be some concept created by aliens tbh. lol.
💙 mm ni friend wishes she was there though… 🥺 i'm feeling okay i guess. kinda weird but idk how to explain this feeling. i feel ‘good’ but it’s like.. weird. i think i might be suppressing some not so ok things/emotions but oh well… i feel ok. 🤷🏻♀️ wbu? *no pressure* ^^
🥺💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah sleep is just.. weird. that’s.. late- xD /lh 🩷
but it’s okie that you weren’t 🩷 yeah i think i know what you mean. like you’re not sad but it’s not genuine happiness, just.. okay? maybe. maybe that’s not the best explanation either.
i’m okay i think. thoughts are there but they’re always so, i think i’m okay right now 🩷
@justmeeva uh nope - idek if late would be the right word 💀😭 /lh
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pretty much yeah 💙 and it’s okay i'm not even sure how it works or what i actually mean anyways… idek. i think your explanation was good and i thought that worked, that’s pretty much how it is 💙
okay 💙 i understand friend. 💙
*sits here quietly and leaves a hug…* ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs you* thank you ni <3
@justmeeva
happy birthday to the best eva beanie in the whole world 💜
thank you for always being kind to me. for the little check-in notes in this space. for your eva-hugs, which are always, always, always more than okie. 🥺 thank you for showing me you care about me. (and for being there when my head explodes…) 💜
thank you for the memories :') for being my twinnie and fellow cheering bear. 🧸💖 just for being yourself. ik we haven't been talking much lately… and i know that eva beanie may have some mixed feelings about today/her birthday. 💜 ik birthdays can be difficult sometimes. especially when we have certain thoughts pulling us in a certain direction. i wish i knew how to help more 💜 or i wish i could rid this world of depression and trauma and the things that haunt us at nighttime, and throughout the day sometimes. i wish i always had the right words to say that would at least bring a little bit of comfort. :') i want to say thank you…. 💜 for being my friend, but i also want to say i'm sorry, because i haven't been the friend i could have been.
friend…. i don't know how to change things. i don't know how it's going to go after today, to be honest. i do understand how painful and exhausting life can be so it drives us to the point of wanting… that. :') i just want you to know something from me okie? :')
your life means something to someone. 💜 your life has meant something to me. i'm sure your life has meant something to eyes, and to nadia, and to soul. it means something to us.
your here right now… reading this. breathing, existing. i know it's hard, sometimes it take a lot just to be here and to breathe and exist. :')
i want to thank you for being here 💜 for being my twinnie sis and my friend. ni friend does love you 💜 so much.
🥺 hug…?
i noticed it's kind of fuzzy so… here. 💜
love,
ni.
p.s. i hope part of this note/anything i said here didn't trigger you friend…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
omagod ni. i read it like 3 times because… you’re just so so amazing. i don’t have the words this whole letter deserves but i’m really really thankful for this, for you. i’m uncertain too. but i don’t want to think about it right now 🩷 just- thank you so much. i’m really happy to have you in my life. i’m really happy i met you. i’m really happy you’re my friend. i’m really happy for the times you’ve wanted to give up, to leave, but stayed. kept going. i’m proud of you friend. really really proud of you. you’re so strong, even if you don’t feel like it. but you are. staying, is strength. not giving up, is strength. but you know what’s also strength? asking for help. taking breaks. having setbacks, but still continuing to keep going, even if it takes time to get back on track. you’re strong and amazing ni friend. i love you so, so so so much. don’t ever forget that. even if you can’t be here too much. even if you need a break. even if your brainie wants you to believe something else. i love you. i love you i love you i love you. ❤️
the picture thingie - i l o v e it. it’s beautiful. and adorable. perfect. thank you so much 🩷🩷
*hugs you tight and gives a birthday cupcake 🧁* (ni hugs are also always always welcome 🩷) 💗💗💗
@justmeeva 💜 i understand the uncertainty. 💜
you have no idea how you brightened my day with your reply 🥺 smh! 🤧 (meanwhile my brain telling me it’s not daytime… evening? night? it's 8 pm… i don’t understand time.) 💜 yk… i'm happy i met you too. you are one of the pieces of life that makes it beautiful.
…life is meaningless without people. some people make it *** hard… there are other people though. they make it a little easier to cling onto life. because there are a few pieces that are beautiful and shine and make you want to stay, and feel loved, even if it’s for a little, cared for, even if your brain convinces you otherwise. and those pieces are people. thank you for being one of those pieces 💜
your strong too. 💜 you probably don't realise it that much… 🥺 but i don't really see that in myself either. but here you are. here, you wrote this note. and you reminded me. and i have another thing to be grateful for 💜 another memory. it's just eva being her eva-self 🥺
“you’re so strong, even if you don’t feel like it. but you are. staying, is strength. not giving up, is strength. but you know what’s also strength? asking for help. taking breaks. having setbacks, but still continuing to keep going, even if it takes time to get back on track. you’re strong and amazing ni friend. i love you so, so so so much. don’t ever forget that. even if you can’t be here too much. even if you need a break. even if your brainie wants you to believe something else. i love you. i love you i love you i love you” ~ can i cry? 🥺 this… 😭
*eats cake* 🍰 *nom nom nom* your welcome 💜 *nom nom nom* i found this too but i wish it was cake in the chopsticks (cake in chopsticks? really, ni? -wisdom from my brain)
💜💜💜💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*tries to process everything you said and generate words but fails* eeee you’re amazing and you’re welcome and i love you and thank you eeeee! 🥺😭💗✨
*forgets half of what you said now that i have to reply smh me 😭*
i agree with what you said. you’re one of those important wonderful pieces too 🩷 one of those rare special hope-bringing pieces 🩷
mm you can cry but only if it’s not of sadness ✨🥺🩷🩷 *hugss youuu* 💕
did you find out what anime the gifs are from? :0 (i dunno if you’ve said it before maybe you have-) 🩷
@justmeeva i was talkie-ing about you though 🥺💜 still, thank you 💜 (i don’t have many more words either lol 😅🥺) *biiiiig huuuuuuggggssss* mhm it's from k-on
@LoveMyMoonflowers
eeeeee niiiiii smhhh your pfppp 🥺🥺🥺😭🩷🩷 i love you so much eeeeee 😭😭🩷
@justmeeva bruh. i couldn’t even put this one.
or this one.
because they said you can’t put pfps of celebrities 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers
they’re so cuteee eeeeee 😭🩷💗💕
@justmeeva i can't put them as my pfps though cause 7cups is being mean 😭😭😭
thinking about you. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
thinking about you too 🩷
i’m sorry lovely, my mom told me to put the phone away and clean my room (on my birthday, smh /hj) and after that she told me to put my phone away because it was bedtime, and by the time she went to sleep and i could’ve come here, i was just so tired that i kind of just- fell asleep. i’m sorry 🩷
@justmeeva
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lol. *smh* sorry she said that on your birthday 🙄 you could have cleaned your room today. on your not-birthday. 🤪 but you don’t have to be sorry for falling asleep 💜 i'm glad you got the rest. it must have been a long day anyways, with all the canoeing and visiting your grandparents.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah, it was. my arms hurt now, which- was kind of expected heh. but it’s ok it’s ok 🩷
*shares some of the candy i got* 🍬🍬
@justmeeva sorry for not seeing this earlier 💜
yeah. i understand 💜 hehe.
*noms* now i might not need that cereal 🤔 /jk
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sits here and has some eva hugs ready for you for when you come here* 🩷
@justmeeva eva hugs! *huggies tight* im happy to see you 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*huggle wuggles* hi friend 🩷 have you even gotten any sleep? you’ve been here so often throughout the night :’) :o 🩷
@justmeeva *hugs* um… i slept a lot yesterday so… yeah. lol. last night, well… i've gotten some sleep here and there, little fragments and pieces. it’s ok. 💜 thank you for asking. did you sleep okay? i know sometimes the night can bring some unwanted things with it.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mm okay.. i hope your day won’t be too tiring then, and that you’ll get some more again tonight 🩷 or today ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 🩷
i slept fairly well, i woke up a bit earlier than i maybe would’ve wanted to (before 6am o_o) but it’s okay, i’m not very tired 🩷
@justmeeva thank you 💜 lol the day 😛 you know me… xD
i'm glad you slept fairly well 💜 *sends sleepy beams for the future so hopefully we both get some rest tonight* i'm not very tired either tbh. okay… maybe a little. but nini-brainie awake. *sigh*
did you have breakfast yet?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*accepts beams and stores them in a jar (i didn’t know there was a jar emoji- 🫙- what-) and puts reminder to send some back to ni friend tonight*
no, i’ve just been laying in bed since i woke up :p have you? :0 🩷
@justmeeva
um? *blinks once*
no. *blinks twice*
what? *rubs eyes*
um… this is news to me. a jar emoji 🫙 i'm actually kind of amazed that it exists. what 😭 well… we learn something new every day right? 🤪 probably not every day but that’s what they say 🤷🏻♀️
lol same. except im kind of hiding under my duvet and then getting up and occasionally pacing around. no i didn’t nom anything yet… kinda hungry tho.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yup, guess you do learn something new every.. once in a while ✨🩷
getting some steps there hm? /j/lh is it out of worry? or just a mood? out of boredom? or something else? /nfta 🩷
yeah, i’m getting a bit hungry too. though i’ll probably eat some birthday leftovers or snacks :p ✨
@justmeeva yeah lol. 💜🌟
lmao 😭 i had to stifle my laugh 🤭 nah… idek what it is. usually just means i'm thinking a lot and really rapidly so i feel like i can’t stay still and want to go about all over the place like the thoughts. idk - that doesn’t make sense. it sounds silly lol. that’s ok tho, it is kinda silly come to think of it
ooo okie dokie 💜 idk why i imagined cake for breakfast 😭 sorry
i might eat cereal. 🥣
@LoveMyMoonflowers
for some reason i instantly thought of a bunny doing zoomies-
hehe 💕
speaking of bunnies….. i saw baby bunnies yesterday 😭😭 they were so fluffy and soft 😭🩷🩷
just look at those babies eeeeeeeee 🥺🥺😭💗💗
cake for breakfast? i meannnn….. 🎂🍰🍽️😏 :p maybe :p
cereal sounds good 🩷🩷
@justmeeva 🥺 eva? can i scream? or cry? because the cuteness is too much 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i'm sitting here, it is quiet, but inside im melting and jgtjffjtftjjcgcjgcjhifvkfyfcjzxfty 🥺💜💜💜💜💜💜 did you like see them at your grandparents place or something? or you visited somebody else? No pressure of course but im just curious lol 💜 still no pressure.
do you have more pictures tho 🥺 *internal cuteness overload* im going to be melting like this for at least 5 centuries /lh 😭😭😭😭😭💜💜💜💜💜
lol. are you even allowed to do that tho /lh i meeeeaaannn, it might be your not-birthday but it is your day-after-your-birthday. 🤪😏🍰
yas. ima go make my cereal.
hold on…. make my cereal or get my cereal? cause cereal ain’t stuff you cook 🤔 *confuzzled*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@justmeeva you tried copying/pasting it and reading right? or want me to take a screenshot and post it here?
nvm lol i saw your reply sorry 😅 im the stupid one xD
@LoveMyMoonflowers
smh now that cups removed the reply limit, we have the wall that eats our text 😭 smh smh smh 😭
i’ll reply to you in a minute 🩷
@justmeeva 😭 was that their way of making fun of us or something? *smh 7cups* i'm ngl the reply limit wasn't great but it was better than our text getting eaten jesus christ.
take your time 💜 i got me my cereal ✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni welp i was in the middle of writing a reply and i accidentally closed it because i’m stupid eeeuuuggghhhh 😭😭😭
@justmeeva
(jk for the last one)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*tries to remember what i wrote*
(replying here because yes)
yes, you can scream or cry in our wonderland, but only if the cause is a picture of baby bunnies :p ✨💕 /hj
the place where i went canoeing, the end destination was a viking-themed place where there was a restaurant, a little corner with the bunnies, a lake for fishing and things like that. i’ve taken a bunny home from there two times 🩷 but um i don’t have a bunny right now, anymore.
yus i have a few more hold on-
just look at emmm agahaftauafafaga 🥺🥺😭😭🩷🩷
well, i am home with just my siblings so.. who’s stopping me 😏😉 /j yes i’m allowed to, we always survive on party/birthday leftovers for a few days after the birthday xD
i’d say “enjoy your cereal ✨💕” but i’m pretty sure within all the time i took, you’ve already finished them a long ago xD
@justmeeva
i can’t stop laughing staring at this gif i need to scroll down gOsh-
(don’t worry, i understand. lol.)
okie then lol 💜 *screams and cries* 🥺😭😭😭💜
ohhhh i see. that’s really cool! so it’s a familiar place. 💜 it sounds like a really cool place honestly. /gen 💜
ewdfvvhjooohwtbhtuioogtjh they’re like… lil floofy marshmallows. 😭💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 lil marshmallow floofs. 😭😭😭💜💜💜
ah. are they awake yet? /nfta. and yeah that makes sense 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
dance! 🕺💃🎶
(why’s it so smoll 😭)
@justmeeva
