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hi evabuddybeanie đ hehe. i hope you get this tag đ„ș me realised our conversations are sort of all over forum-land xD and if eva friend is comfy ^-^ we can have our own talkie corner? only if your okie with it đ€đ sometimes i think rooms not always comfy to talk about things :') sometimes forum-land is a bit comfier đ or idk - maybe i'm wrong xD that's just a thought. đ hehe.Â
for hooman beans other than evabuddybeanie, please don't post here, unless your me or eva đ and please don't read or lurky lurk here because it's our talkie space. đ thank you for understanding ^-^
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those random moments of realisation:
ohhhh- ohhhhhhhh- so âacâ stands for âair conditionerâ. ohhhhhh- i knew both words but i never put the two together. now that makes sense :00Â
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damn iâm really gonna miss this thread..
@justmeeva it's not gonna go anywhere đ„ș [ni friend shall explain]Â
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so iâve been away⊠for maybe a week. maybe a lil more than that. (iâm bad at calculating) but i realised one thing: i donât think i can survive too long without the friends iâve made here. :') i missed youuu :( but i wanted to come back here now to say that iâm not leaving for good, this will just be one of my (partial :P) breaks.Â
iâm so sorry for being⊠silly. :') my silly self. i really did think it was time for me to leave for good then, and i sent requests to delete my account, which they didnât respond to. so⊠thatâs when i decided not to pursue it further, i donât want this thread and the memories we've made together here to be deleted just like that, all gone :') and every other thread, and everything⊠đÂ
so iâm not going to do that, iâm not going to be leaving for good. :P đ but i think ill be on a partial-break until ~the end of this month. my new school year will start on the 2nd of September, so ill probably be completely back then.Â
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no need to be sorry, iâm really really really glad youâre staying đ©· i could never be mad at you for changing your mind and deciding to stay, even if it feels silly đ©· thank you đ©· *hugs if okay*Â
@justmeeva huggssssssssss itâs good to see you :') đđđ
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hi
so uh.. i kind of feel like iâve been neglecting you :â) because it often happens that i plan to talk to you, but i end up talking to someone before, whether irl or on cups, and it just takes so much effort and absolutely all my energy so i just.. donât reach you..? and yeah i could leave a small message or check on you, but iâm afraid that the following messages from me might be dry or effortless sounding so.. yeah i overthink those things a lot. but youâre constantly on my mind, really đ©· and i constantly send you telepathic hugs and good wishes hehe đ©· iâm trying but iâm kind of failing everyone so :â)
anyways..
*hugs tight if okay* đ
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(/nfta itâs okay lovely iâll wait đ©·)
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iâm sorry
there's a lot i have to say but idk how to put into words, i need to try though
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happy to see you đ©·Â
itâs okay, words are hard. take your time <3 if you donât want to talk right now, or if youâre not in the right headspace or just canât find words you donât have to do it right now <3 i can wait, i donât want to pressure you into anything lovely <3 take your time, how ever long you need <3<3
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i'm happy to see you too đÂ
hugs if okie? thank you friend <3 your a little too kind to me lol. but thatâs because eva friend is a kind hooman <3Â
iâm sorry i havenât been around. at allâŠ. i dont think you were neglecting me or anything :') i think itâs the opposite. you were still posting here while i was away and you always been kind to me and understanding and i never paid any of it back properly. even now, iâm sounding dry andâŠ. ***. But youâre still here talking to me :') and you understood me and you said it was ok to take my time. it might not seem like much but i'm still grateful for you, i see you as a good friend and always have.Â
but i'm sorry too because i haven't been a good one backÂ
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*gladly hugs you because theyâre always always okie* <3 you deserve kindness ni <3 youâre worthy of kindness, and i see it. iâve always seen it in you <3Â
okay i know how you feel - guilty, like youâre not doing enough and being the bad or worse friend.. i know because i feel like this about myself, so itâs definitely valid to feel like that - but, considering who i am and how i see you and what i think of you, i donât think itâs much of a surprise that i donât see it that way. youâre my friend whoâs going through tough times and has to somehow deal with that, so in addition talking to friends, even if you want to, itâs just too tiring, too draining. i could never blame you for it. itâs not your fault.Â
ni, i want you to remember this. you donât owe me anything. no matter how much you want to argue against it, you donât owe me anything. youâre doing the best you can and i know it and iâll take whatever your âbestâ currently is. if itâs talking to me and sending gifs back and forth, iâll gladly take that. if itâs staying away, figuring things out, taking a break from socialising, iâll take that. you *are* doing enough. whatever you do or donât do, to me, itâll always be enough. iâve never ever ever been mad at you, and weâve known each other for a fairly long time. i just canât be mad at you for trying to manage with everything going on in your life. youâll always be my friend, always be in my thoughts, no matter what. nothing will ever change that. ever.