Ni and Eva Safes Talkie Corner 💕
@justmeeva
hi evabuddybeanie 💕 hehe. i hope you get this tag 🥺 me realised our conversations are sort of all over forum-land xD and if eva friend is comfy ^-^ we can have our own talkie corner? only if your okie with it 🤗💜 sometimes i think rooms not always comfy to talk about things :') sometimes forum-land is a bit comfier 💙 or idk - maybe i'm wrong xD that's just a thought. 💜 hehe.
for hooman beans other than evabuddybeanie, please don't post here, unless your me or eva 💙 and please don't read or lurky lurk here because it's our talkie space. 💜 thank you for understanding ^-^
🌙 ni friend 🌸
checking on you, just in case - hru? /nfta 🩷
@justmeeva
awwe you’re just the bestest always <3 i appreciate you so freaking much. idk how i am lol 🤪 okay i guess, ignoring life. <3
how’s eva friend? :o /nfta
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i understand that 💕 me’s.. okay? kind of ~away- again (again), so i’m ~emotionally numb~ so i guess that means i’m okay. i feel like this ‘derealisation and being away’ is like a coping protective thing set by my brain or something. idk. it doesn’t always make everything better tho :p
@justmeeva
i’m sorry buddy that’s not fun that it happens so often… 😞 me not vv well versed in that tbh - i wish i knew how to help more. 💜 is there anything that - idk - helps? ik that’s dumb of me to ask lol i might have asked this before, too. :') my memory is horrible gosh. :')
i guess it would mean “okay” 💜 but you’re right, it wouldn’t make everything better either. 😞 in some ways, a bit worse, mhm? :') idk. 😞 i’m vv sorry buddy 😞 *keeps huggie wuggie-ing you* 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it’s okayy, i myself don’t know what to do about it either :p i don’t think there’s anything i can do about it, once it happens, it just does. and then sometimes i get my emotions back but then they’re usually too much and i go back to numb. yeah~
*hugglesssss* 🩷
@justmeeva
ni friend don’t have much experience with this tbh but i think i get what you mean - once it happens, it happens. :') a lot like… life, tbh. 😞 idk (#nisbraincannotbrain ✨) me understand how we get the emotions back, but they’re just too much… ☹️ it’s like the moment we finally feel 💜 we feel too much. smh life :') i think the feeling too much part leads to the numbness, and after the numbness we feel too much again. idk - kind of like a cycle. idk. 💜 my brain not braining. 🤪 maybe me just don’t know what i’m talking about 😅 lol
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it’s okay buddy, really 🩷 you’ve been pretty spot on :0 it sounds pretty good of a description of what it is. a cycle - exactly. over and over and over again. :’)
@justmeeva
i’m sorry 😞 sometimes i think we feel inclined to sort of ignore our feelings and emotions 💜 not really - idk - take the time to process them. 💜 sort of tucking them away, tucking them away until it all piles up and eventually? boom. 😞 :') does eva buddy think that might be what it is? 💜 maybe we might just need to find a way to take the time to process things? 💜 idk.
tbh - i’m not sure what the difference is between feelings and emotions. there is a difference, i think, i read about it somewhere, but i don’t remember lmao. :') silly ni 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
it sounds familiar, but i feel like now it’s more like - not by choice. i think it just happens when i “feel too much”, either too much happiness (i mean, too happy about something. feeling too okay in some moment. idk-) or too much sadness, any strong emotions involved really. my brain just makes it all seem fake, it’s like it’s not my reality. and all the emotions poof away. now i can’t do anything about it, i can’t control it, i can’t make it start or stop when i want to. :’)
@justmeeva
ah, i see now. 💜 i think i misunderstood it a bit earlier. 💜 :') i think the fact that you can’t control it makes it even more… mmm. 😞 does evabeanie think it’s affecting her in a way she might, idk, want to speak to someone - like a professional? me knows it can be hard to get in touch with those people especially when our parents are… mmm. :') but would that be possible/would it help any? 💜
i’m sorry i don’t mean to invade eva friend’s space or anything… ik i sound a bit crazy lol :') i just wish there was something that could help or make things… even just… a little bit easier. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
actually, that one time i had a ~talk~ with my mom, she said she could find someone for me to talk to if i wanted. i think i do want..? but for some reason i have second thoughts. it’s almost like i’m afraid to get better-? it sounds so weird and those words are not exactly the way it really is, it’s like.. i’m afraid to be okay. because i feel like i’m afraid i can’t? it’s nonsense and confusing and weird. idk how to explain it. that’s another reason - i don’t know how to explain myself. hehe~ but i’ll figure something out. eventually.
@justmeeva
no buddy i think you’re explaining it right. 💜 the fear of getting better :') to be completely honest i have that too… 😞 it’s complicated isn’t it :') everything, idk, most things about life are so complicated. and crazy and messy… 💜
i don’t think it’s really nonsense friend 💜 it’s real and understandable, but i don’t think it’s nonsense. 💜 mmm :') me thinks me has an idea what that other reason is friend but me not gonna assume/guess 💜 i just hope you’ll be safe. :')
ik it’s not my place, it’s your decision 💜 but i think it might help a tiny bit to just talk to them? just once and see how it goes? 💜 i’m glad your mom is willing to let you see someone and talk to them 💜 but tbh it’s natural and understandable to have those second thoughts :/
idk im not much help lol 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
buuuttt i am making cookies for an aunt and her lil child, it’s the aunt’s birthday celebrating today so i woke up at 8am, cupsed for like 30 minutes if it o.o, and now i finally started hehe
and my catto is also climbing on me as i try to cook. she’s obsessed with munching my arm. smh.
@justmeeva
awwe 💜 that’s vvv sweet of you friend, but me not surprised because that’s evaaa :o always vvv sweet. 💜 did eva friend get any rest? :') if not :') since it’s saturday 💜 i hope you can maybe (?) get some rest later on (?) 💜
awwe your kitty bean is adorable 🐾 lots of love to the little catto 💜 me sending lots of love to them and some thankiiies too 💜 for making me smile. 🐾
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i did get some sleep, surprisingly i woke up with the first alarm (i had like 6, i usually sleep through them all.), even though it’s weekend?? 🤯 🤯
the catto looked at my phone for a moment, i think she sends you love too 🩷 and so does my doggo 🩷 and so do i 🩷
@justmeeva
lol dw i woke up really early too. or… more like i didn’t sleep much 🤭 and just been awake/awake-ish/half asleep, some kind of chaos in between. somehow i don’t feel tired. (i will soon though… i’m almost completely sure of it. i’m freaking sleep deprived. i’m nuts…)
i’m glad you got some sleep though friend 💜 sleeping is hard tbh. nighttime is hard… :') but me glad evabuddybean got some rest, you deserve it. 💜
awwe that melted me omg 🥺 that’s so freaking adorable 🥺💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
awe i’m sorry you didn’t get that much sleep 😔 you’d think sleeping is the easiest thing to do - well, apparently no. :’)
melting again?? noo niii D: *goes outside* *brings snow* *throws it on my phone* ❄️❄️❄️ *tries to do elsa* D:
@justmeeva
nah lol sleeping is supposed to be like an escape of sorts, and yet… so difficult to get. lmao. :') *smh at sleep* and *smh at life in general* 🤦🏻♀️ lol 💜
lmao elsa 😭🤣 ah snow is cool though :o i’d love to see/be around snow. 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah, life making even escaping temporarily difficult. smh indeed.
snow’s beautiful though it has started to melt so not so beautiful anymore 😬🫣. *randomly starts talking about the seasons* i kind of wish it was winter forever. i have very mixed emotions about spring. it should be beautiful, it is beautiful, but something.. is off about it. idk. it feels so weird to me. i have no idea how to explain it. but i don’t like spring. :,) and summer - everyone likes it, it’s warm, sunny, you can swim and so much - idk how to feel about that either. i like winter because it’s mostly dark and the snow hides all the colors, it’s so calming to look at. it’s cold, all the christmas lights and everything everywhere.. that’s what i like. i seem to have a beef with the sun lol. it’s so brights and warm - that’snotsupposedtobeabadthing - idk. winter’s better. darkness is better. coldness is better, when you’re in a cold room but under a warm blanket. also, let’s not mention how winter doesn’t have bugs. or at least way more. mosquitos are- shouldn’t exist. winter for the win.
i hope you enjoyed my monologue about the seasons, don’t forget to like and subscribe and come back for more content. peace ✌️
@justmeeva
*claps because it was a pretty good monologue* 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 random ✨ but why are the regular emojis yellow? 🤔 they look dang weird don’t they 🤔
tbh we are legit twins lol i love the winter so much more too. you’re absolutely right in that there are fewer bugs and mosquitoes and ugh 🙄 i love being in a cold room with a nice warm blankey too. everyone in my house thinks i’m weird because of it. they’re like - that doesn’t make any sense lol but it really does, i think 😛 the feel is just… different. better. can’t get that same feeling a different way at least i don’t think so. 💜
*subscribes and waits for more content* 😛
@LoveMyMoonflowers
my theory for why they’re originally yellow is that they’re owned by the simpsons. i mean what else could it be.
another proof that we are twins 😛
i can *not* sleep when it’s warm/hot in the room. just no. but with cold..~ going to bed under a warm blanket in a cold room is heaven, having to wake up from under a warm blanket in a cold room is ***.
*** = fireplace land.
@justmeeva
the simpsons 😭🤣 dang those simpsons 😭 we have yellow emojis because of them smh. but tbh - imagine if these regular (what *does* regular even mean? ✨) emojis weren’t yellow. like this colour 👏🏻 or this one 👍🏼 or this one 🫶🏾 the emojis would look… mmm. 🤔 lol idk 😭
omg yes 🧠 *gives you an award for genius-ness* 🥇
agh that’s so true lol. it’s heaven when you go to bed in that blankie but it’s *** when you wake up in it 😭 fr so true.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok ok ok. am i the only one who when someone uses an emoji with hair, i’m like “aha! that person’s blonde!” feeling like a detective. 😬
@justmeeva
nope 😂 i’m the same way 😛 fr. like a detective lol eva 😭
ni friend has dark hair, i’ve used 🤦🏻♀️ and 🤷🏻♀️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i know. 😏😭
@justmeeva
i knew and know that you knew and know 🤔
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hi (: hru today?
@justmeeva
hi…
how are you friend <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
is anything wrong buddy..? 🥺 i’m okay
@justmeeva
you sure you’re okay…? 🥺 me loves you friend. <3 yeah… ni friend not doing okay but me talked a bit in sr. i don’t feel right in the head. im not sure…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
awwh i’m so sorry to hear that buddy 😞 did sr help any? is there anything i can do? do you want to talk? i love you too, so much 🩷
mhm i’m okay
@justmeeva
yeah i talked… too much in sr… lol. :') *hugs if okay* mmm i hope you’re really okay friend. 🥺 i think i feel a bit better after talking in sr, felt… heard. i think. :')
thank you friend <3 me appreciate you for caring about me. it means so much to me, you mean so much to me. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
okay, at least something then, right? 🩷 if you need me, don’t be afraid to say anything okay? if there’s anything i can do, i will 🩷
oh ni of course i care about you, how could i not? 🥺 you matter to me, so so much ❤️
@justmeeva
i care about you so so much too. 🥺 *huggies* 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs you so tight for so long* ❤️
@justmeeva
*hugs vvv tight*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
how’s nibuddy right now? /nfta 🩷
@justmeeva
doing okay right now lovely, really tired though lol and trying to catch up with cups. 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i understand that 🩷 you’re a popular popcorn 🍿✨ and you were vv missed 🥺 so~ hehe
i hope ni fren can get some rest soon 🩷
@justmeeva
a popular popcorn 🍿 my new name 🤔 is popcorn 😎🍿 i actually can’t eat popcorn :') i miss those days… when i could. 🥺
i missed you so freaking much too. 🥺 :') and i did follow along with your diary forum 💜 i wish i could have been there for you friend. i’m really sorry… 😞 *huggles tight*
i will 💜 thank you friend. i hope you’ll get some rest, too 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok before i do the compassionate nice text i’ll just tell you what my brain said so you’ll have some time to process it. no questions asked.
“lolnipop”. “lol ni pop”. 🍭
*smhs myself because what-*
@justmeeva
lmao 😭😂 lolnipop 😎 your brain is phenomenal eva 🧠
@justmeeva
that is…. except when it’s being a meanie to you….. 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
awweee nuuu D: i’ll be sure to invent a time machine and bring you back to those days when you could and then we’ll watch a movie and eat the most popcorn anyone ever has ✨ (:
it’s not your fault at all lovely 🩷 i’m happy you’re here right now but won’t blame you for the times you can’t be ❤️
*bes huggled tight* :p 💕
@justmeeva
i’ll be able to nom some popcorn by the end of the year or sometime next year hopefully 🥺 ni friend has braces… 😞 they suck :/ take me to the future lol ✨ i’ll have straight teeth, one part of me will look decent (finally) and i’ll be able to nom popcorn 🍿😎 *noms popcorn with evabuddybeanie*
thank you friend 🥺💜 you’re the vvvv best always. 💜 (even if your brainie disagrees right now… 😞)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
smh you’re sweeter than any lollipop ever (and some are literally straight up sugar so i advise you to be proud) 🥺😭🫶
@justmeeva
🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭 ummmmm… *has no words* 😭 *runs after the dictionary* 🏃🏻♀️📖
@justmeeva
looks more like the dictionary is running after me! smh 🤦🏻♀️
📖🏃🏻♀️ there we go 😎✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*whispers* wanna know something 👀
i think you’ve mentioned that you got braces this summer right? *dramatic moment of silence* i got ~retainers~ this summer, they fill the purpose of braces - fix my teeth - but i can still eat anything i want :D
to my brain (sometimes bad, sometimes good, always weird) it’s so wholesome that it’s the ✨~same time~✨ 🤯😅
so yeah
@justmeeva
yep, i got them in july. :') ever since then… a new kind of pain entered my life. i feel like my pain tolerance has increased since then - idk lol. :') lmao that sounds so weird 😭 what i just said 😭
omg really?! :0 i didn’t know people can have retainers without braces first! :0 that’s amazing 😭 i wish i had that lol but i’m not sure a retainer alone would correct my teeth :') idrk. i’ll get my braces off this year… or next year - idk. and after that, behold, a retainer :D ✨
does it hurt…? :')
and awwe yes it is wholesome 🥺 we got it at the same time. 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
>:D
@justmeeva
how are you? :o 💜 *hugs if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me’s okay right now 💕 *hugssssss*
@justmeeva
awwe i’m glad 💜 that’s good friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sending you lots of love and hugs if okay 🩷
@justmeeva
*sends loads of love back* 🥺 *huggie wuggies* eva bean hugs are always okay 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ykw ima just start again bc it’s getting messy with the stooped reply limit smh
i got them in july tooooo :0 *runs around because of woahhh*
*casually talks about retainers now*
my teeth were (are :p) pretty… ✨ew✨ but how it works is that they first scanned my teeth, then they made the retainers, and i have to wear one pair for 10 days, then i move to a new pair which is slightly straighter so my teeth just slooowly move into the shape of the retainer and one day, step by step, my teeth will be ✨normal✨ 🎉🎉 :D
@justmeeva
:0 omg. orthodontic twins 😎 lol /j /lh
oh! so it’s like invisalign? sounds like the invisalign trays that people get. i was going to get something like that but my orthodontist said braces would be better for me, because when someone has those removable thingies they have more control over it so… they might remove it whilst they’re in pain. therefore, wearing it less often than they should be. idk. she said braces would be better for me because then she’s the one who has control over it lol - maybe she thinks i’m not very responsible 😭 /j
she’s very sweet and caring though 🥺 she always asks if i’m okay during the adjustments 🥺 she’s so gentle. and she’s very soft-spoken. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeahh! my dentist said that i have to be very consistent and responsible and really want it but i absolutely agreed because i protested against braces (i started crying when my mom offered braces as the solution for my teeth 😭) and don’t get me wrong, i have nothing against braces, people with braces literally always ✨slay✨ them (in my eyes at least) but i was absolutely convinced they were gonna look horrible on me and since i had (have <3) a ton of insecurities already i just completely erased that option 😊. and baboom my mom found this solution and after some convincing i convinced my parents and here we are :p
@justmeeva
eva… 😭 what did you just say? :') you said people with braces slay them ✨😭
me: *has braces*
me in pictures, not showing my teeth: 🙂
me in every day conversation, showing my teeth: 🤓 (without the glasses because i rarely wear my glasses lol)
i do not slay it at all 😭😂
but yeah tbh me understand the crying part friend… :') i cried when the consultant in my native country told me i’d need an expander 💀 the idea of that was terrifying to me. so i found out about invisalign, we booked a consultation somewhere else (ni friend lives abroad and visits her native country about once a year) 💜 and the orthodontist (my current one) said braces would be better for me *smh* so here i am :')
i’m honestly so happy you don’t have braces lovely :') personally i don’t think they look good at all, they’re not made for their looks lol, doesn’t matter who they’re on 😭 but i guess idk some people think they look good 🤷🏻♀️
braces suck.
i think you made a wise decision 💜
(me understand the insecurities part friend… 😞 i think most of us in this world have insecurities. :') *sitting with you friend and huggie wuggies you* 💜)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i try to show my teeth as absolutely little as possible too, you’re not alone in that 🩷 i still think you’re beautiful tho, though i haven’t ever seen you. i honestly don’t care at all about what others look like, they all look beautiful to me. no exceptions. in the most literal way. plus, your just out of this world awesome personality adds so much beauty to you. but i know how we can be vv mean to ourselves, i might not be able to change the way you see yourself just so quickly, but you might be able to accept the fact that i think you’re beautiful (: and i really really really mean it. 🩷
yeah, and the fact that people aren’t born with insecurities, they’re taught.. that’s pretty sad. and overcoming them is really hard 😔 can’t wait for the time i learn to not care about what others think about me (or what i think they think about me) and just exist in peace :’) but it’s something that’s far far away in the future.
you’re my sitting buddy (: (ngl i kinda love that potential nickname) *huggle wugglesss* 💕
@justmeeva
now read what you wrote to yourself, evabuddybeanie. 🥺 in those words - i see you. i see so much beauty in you too lovely 💜 you’re kind and beautiful and caring and compassionate and empathetic and so so so freaking loving. i see and feel so much love and compassion and wisdom in those words you wrote here. 💜 that’s *you* 💜 loving, and compassionate, and wise and so much more. 💜
ikr… the world has taught us so much ***. to hate ourselves. to hate how we look, how we act, if we are a tiny bit different from what everyone else considers “normal” (bruh what does normal mean anyways lol?)… they say we aren’t enough… 😞 or we’re defective. it hurts. i wish we had more people who were open-minded and more empathetic 💜 who understand, who have some compassion. who see the beauty in everyone. :') who are kind. 💜 i wish… 😞 but :') i guess that’s not how the world is. there are so many people in this world who are meaniiee and cruel to each other… 😞 and they lack empathy. :') and they *judge* and *hate.* 😞
awwe i think of so many potential nicknames too lol 💜 but i feel that it’s too weird of me to make up my own nicknames lmao - so i just hope that someone comes up with the same nickname so it will be official 🥺✨ lmao. 💜 sitting buddies 🥺 that’s so cute 💕 i’m ni and you’re eva and we sit together and are sitting buddies 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
you know, reading the “i wish people were” part, i noticed something. open-minded, empathetic, understanding, compassionate, kind - those are all the words i would use to describe you. in conclusion, the world needs more people like you 🥺 you’re one of those people who make the world a better place. you make my world a better place, that’s for sure 🩷 and you remind me of that all over again, with every word you say and every hug you give ❤️
@justmeeva
eva eva eva
i need help/advice 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers
smh smh smh
how’d i manage to not notice this
what is it? :0
@justmeeva
awwe dw it’s okay lol 💜
basically ✨ (it’s not very basic 🤔 prepare for a badly crafted explanation by the ni ✨) i’m going to a bookstore on… saturday. well, we were supposed to go tomorrow but we’re all really tired so we are just resting at home tomorrow. 💜 and going on saturday because my parents have some work to get done on friday.
i rarely visit bookstores 🥺 so i’m really freaking excited, i’ll be able to actually get some books after forever. :') but…
my mom will be there. and she will want to “approve” of the books. #welp 🥲 idek if im gonna leave the bookstore with anything. i have a list of some books i want to look for but… idk. 😭
idek why i’m telling eva friend about this 😅 i just wanted to 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers
:0000
@justmeeva
idk what to do 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
what does you think your mom would say about the books you wanna get? what “standards” or rules does she have, do you have any idea?
@justmeeva
idk :')
some things she wouldn’t like in a book includes swearing, mental illness/mental health, death… i actually dk anymore.
hopefully she won’t follow me around the bookstore 😅 it would feel awkward. idk.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i see.. well, maybe you should just choose many books you’re interested in so you’ll still be able to get at least something? so if she denies some, you’ll still have ‘backup’ books
@justmeeva
hehe, we’ll see. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
or am i too late D: (wouldn’t be surprised tho, 30min later eva- big big smh)
@justmeeva
nope
@LoveMyMoonflowers
happy to see you friend 🩷
@justmeeva
:') happy to see you too.
<3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hru..?
@justmeeva
fine thank you friend 💜 how’s you lovely? 💜 *hugs if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs tight* 🩷
which kind of fine? /nfta
i’m.. fine too i guess. but the ‘nearly okay’ kind of fine for now. 🩷
@justmeeva
the exhausted kind. </3
:')
i’m sorry friend… 😞 is there anything ni friend can do? i’m so sorry i’ve been away a lot…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*keeps huggling* i hear you buddy 😔 i’m here if you need me 🩷
it’s okay 🩷 and nu, it’s not your fault lovely 🥺 it makes sense you can’t always be on, i understand <3 i just hope you know you can always come here if you need anyone, you don’t have to go through anything alone 🥺❤️
@justmeeva
i want to try to be here too… 🥺😞 *huggie wuggies tight* :') 💜 you don’t have to go through anything alone either ok? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
but you do try, don’t you? you don’t have to come here for anyone else, you can come here when you want or need to 🩷 if you can’t be here all the time, then it’s okay and makes sense ni 🩷 you have your own life and stuff that you need to ‘deal with’, i couldn’t blame you for having a life outside cups 🥺 i do think about you lots and miss you, but if i know you’re coming back, it just makes seeing you a little more special ❤️
@justmeeva
smh 🥺😭 you’re so sweettttt friend. 🥺💕 and always so understanding :') *huggleeesssss* how can a hooman so kind and caring and understanding exist?🥺😭💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i dunno 🤷🏼♀️ you do deserve all the kindness and care and understanding tho, so maybe i want to try to give you my part of that 🤷🏼♀️
i hope you know how special you really are to me. sure, i have many friends on cups, but you’re like the next level of that. you’re like a best friend but somehow even more than that. you’re not just any other person, or any other friend. you’re so much more than that. you’re one of the very few people i actually completely trust, on cups and off. honestly, i think you’re the first person i would come to if i ever needed anyone. and believe me, i do not say that to everyone. in fact i don’t think i’ve ever said this before. that’s how special you are 🩷 that’s why i’ll do absolutely everything i can to keep you for.. ever, because i think that whatever it is, we can overcome it together ❤️
@justmeeva
“i hope you know how special you really are to me. sure, i have many friends on cups, but you’re like the next level of that. you’re like a best friend but somehow even more than that. you’re not just any other person, or any other friend. you’re so much more than that. you’re one of the very few people i actually completely trust, on cups and off. honestly, i think you’re the first person i would come to if i ever needed anyone. and believe me, i do not say that to everyone. in fact i don’t think i’ve ever said this before. that’s how special you are 🩷 that’s why i’ll do absolutely everything i can to keep you for.. ever, because i think that whatever it is, we can overcome it together ❤️” - eva beaniiiee, 2024.
am i supposed to have any words to reply because i don’t…. omg…. 🥺 sometimes i have this feeling… i literally genuinely want to hug a cups buddy, in reality, more than just a virtual hug 🥺 i know i can’t but i want that sometimes :') this is one of those times 🥺
but the best i can do is send you the biggest virtual hug i can give 💜 and hug my pillow and imagine it’s evabuddybeanie (i’ve done that before) 💜
mmmm yeah idk what to say 🥺🥺🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
words are overrated anyway (: you can just process it. that’s your reality ni, can you imagine that? *woah*
i’ve wanted to hug you irl countless times you have no idea 🥺🩷 *hugs so tight for so long* 🫂
i’ll get home soon and once i’m out of everyone’s sight, i’ll cry an ocean because the pillow thing what 😭🥺😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
thinking about you ni lovely ❤️ hope you’re okay 💕