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@justmeeva @iloveyouxx Hiii!!!
Since timezones hate us I wanted to make a place where we could chat without timezones being timezones!!
*Please don’t look at replies or comment here if you are not Eva or noodle!!*
Hiiii noodle (I noticed you it wont let me reply though)
nah I don’t wanna talk :/ my problems aren’t really worth talking about, it’s the same *** everyday so it’s worthless
@CatHanderOutNoah
awwee no i don’t think it’s ever pointless to talk, if it could make you feel better i’m all for it :0 but it’s absolutely your choice ofc
@justmeeva
idk what to say it’s just my mom being her abusive self (she slapped me like twice so far for crying so I’m crying inside but fine outside)
@CatHanderOutNoah
awhh i’m so sorry for that :( it’s so wrong and you deserve so much better and she should learn that too
@justmeeva
thx (she is gonna *** punch me I needa go outside, brb) idk if she’s started physically abusing me or not. All I know is that slap hurt like *** hellll
@CatHanderOutNoah
that’s absolutely horrible :(
eh it’s fine it’s just my typical day-to-day life, I’ll get through it, come back inside, get abused again, go back outside, sneak back in and chill on cups for a tiny :/
@CatHanderOutNoah
Im at the park now : D
@CatHanderOutNoah
glad you got away to have some space, away from her
@justmeeva
Ill have to go back eventually prob get punched or slapped a few times, then come back :/
I think maybe she is physical abusive :> but I’ll be fine, I can deal with it for another 4 years. I’ll be fine :/ her mental abuse is enough, but her getting physical hurts like *** hellllllll
@CatHanderOutNoah
is there anyone you can tell about any of this? because it really is horrible and something for sure has to change
@justmeeva
I don’t want to. Im to scared to, if I tell somebody I mail get sent somewhere or smth, I’ll just deal with it (I have 4 years left, nothing crazy) I’ll be fine :/
@CatHanderOutNoah
mmh sure..? 4 years is still 4 years..
@justmeeva
i can deal with it :/
@CatHanderOutNoah
okay, if you say so..
agh :/ she finally stopped after like 5 slaps for me crying :/
@CatHanderOutNoah
you went back now?
@justmeeva
yea :/ she’s finally shushed after the slaps to the face and getting all her energy out..now to wait until later for her to abuse me again :/
@CatHanderOutNoah
i’m so sorry for that :( i wish she made up her mind and just.. realised. it’s not okay, not at all
@justmeeva
its fine :/ nothing I can do except deal with the fact I’m a mistake and worthless. I’ll be fine
@CatHanderOutNoah
hey, whatever she says, it’s not you. she mistreats you, yes, and i understand how it’s hard to keep a positive vision of yourself in the middle of everything, but you’re very worthy, just your pure kindness adds so much value to you. she might not see you that way, but i do. many others do. you’re worthy and amazing and special. alright?
alright…I will try to believe that
@CatHanderOutNoah
good ❤️
hi =D im totally okay…totally
@CatHanderOutNoah
oof i’m 6 hours late. hru now?
@justmeeva
Still just as bad even know I slept
@CatHanderOutNoah
awhh i’m sorry :( do you want to talk about it?
@justmeeva
No point, it’s all worthless *** anyways ;/ mom is the problem I think..
@CatHanderOutNoah
i won’t force you to do anything but know that i’m always happy to listen and talk to you
but I’m okay totally =D totally not having a mental breakdown, and scared as *** I’m gonna get jumped by my mom or I think she’s staring at me…im just really scared..idk
@CatHanderOutNoah
are you able to leave the house today aswell?
@justmeeva
yes…bot no
@CatHanderOutNoah
wanna explain?
@justmeev
i could but the last time I ran to the park my mom screamed at me and told me if I leave one more time she’s *** done..idk what she’s gonna do..
@CatHanderOutNoah
oh wow.. okay, maybe not then. so she’s pretty much keeping you in the house?
mhm
@CatHanderOutNoah
okay.. then it might be best to just keep as much distance from her as possible?
@justmeeva
i can try…it isn’t easing my anxiety at all though..I still think she’s gonna jump at me or she’s just straight staring at me and watching everyone of my moves
@CatHanderOutNoah
you know, if it keeps being like this and getting worse, you might have to talk to someone.. because that is definitely not how your life should continue to be for years
well it’s gonna be my life for the next few years weather I like it or not. I’ll deal with it
@CatHanderOutNoah
but being afraid of a parent because they’re violent is so wrong, what if you could get help about it? wouldn’t it be worth a try?
@justmeeva
I don’t think anyone gives a *** about me, I use to think someone cared, but now that I’m more aware. I realize nobody gives a living *** about me. cause it’s been 14 years and not a single person has tried to *** help me. not hospitals, schools, CPS, cops :/ I mean by the time anyone tried to help. I’ll be 18, I’ll be insecure, stupid, annoying, more worthless then I am now, I mean I already have PTSD from my *** moms abuse, but I doubt anybody cares :/
@CatHanderOutNoah
sorry it took me a minute, I started crying cause my mom is being a ***….i tried to tell her how I deal but I just got slapped like to her hardest possible power…it *** hurts
@CatHanderOutNoah
i prob have to go…my moms-
@CatHanderOutNoah
would you have anyone who could help you tho? there are also child protection services and stuff but i doubt you want to make it that big of a deal huh
@justmeeva
Like i said. Nobody cares, CPS doesn't. Cops don't. Hospital after hospital doesn't. I'm worthless to everyone and everything I touch.
I have to go to school so if I don't respond you will know why
@CatHanderOutNoah
that’s really messed up ngl, it’s kinda their job to care
well it’s fine, I can deal with it. Anywho..Hru?
@CatHanderOutNoah
i'm okay, thanks for asking. wbu?
@justmeeva
eh decent
hi
@CatHanderOutNoah
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@justmeeva
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