About to let him go
Hello everyone, just trying to vent... I've been making my loves miserable since I remember. I had therapy many times and I got better but I end up getting to the white and black zone over and over. I'm tired... I see the purpose for therapy any more because I know that I will be here again. I have a marriage of 14 years and I stop this behavior. My husband is exhausted... He deserves better. He is a good man. The little piece of heart that I had alive is dead at this point. I decided to let him go. It' killing me. I will start over, just me... Only me. I'm tired of hurting to the people I love.
I'm so sorry to hear how badly you're hurting. I know the feeling all too well, the idea that you're only bringing the people around you down. *huge hugs*
@Cirwenne thank you
I don't know about an intimate relationship, but I can relate to this on the friendship level. Too many times have I dropped friends because I felt they deserved better, but what I didn't know was that while it was hard for both them and me, that regardless they still wanted to be there for me. Of course, I didn't realize it until too late, but if I could go back I'd try and talk to them about it. Maybe (if you haven't already) try talking to see where his head is at, along with his heart?
I hope you're able to find a good therapist. I also know how hard that it. I'm still trying to find one!
