Alone

I've been feeling alone. Covid makes me feel more isolated. I'm home and not currently working. Many of my few relationships ended before this so I'm lonely. I still have 1 or 2 but they don't show up for me the way that I want sometimes. I don't want to chase love anymore or accept what I'm given and feel lucky. It's a hard time to meet people and wither way I'm scared to repeat my ways of self-sabatoge. Behaving in ways that are not acceptable or selecting the same types of people and trying to change the outcome. I'm overwhelmed. People in my life don't make me feel seen and I guess much of this need is for me to learn to fill. 🙏