Alone

Hi, my name is Emrys and I've recently been diagnosed with BPD. In that time, my best friend left me because she couldn't handle my clinginess anymore. She was my biggest support system because I don't have a lot of friends and I have a rocky relationship with my family. She said that this whole time our 7 year friendship was mostly one sided and the reason she stayed was because she was worried I'd kick the bucket. I don't know how to cope because it's really hard and I've never felt so lonely in my life.