Borderline Personality Disorder

I couldn't find a thread for this so I made my own? Anybody else dealing with this? I'm a mom of two, just diagnosed last year after a psych ward stay and years of it being missed for depression,anxiety,ppd. I was in denial as everywhere to look for info on the ner, it just says bad mothers. I know I need dbt,I just don't have the income for it, I've bought the book though so that's a start. I'm interested in hearing other people's jounrney and perspection on this life sucking curse.

Oh btw my name is Mars.