Feeling all the moods. (TW* just in case)
So I have this friend online and long story short, I had to block him on all the platforms I could. He has multiple accounts and then messaged me on a site that I didn't think he had an account on with a "did you block me". I have been through the ringer before with stalking and first that triggered me. I had gotten the message while filling a new photo album and got triggered by a photo of me as a baby with my parents (now deceased) and then started crying. I was freaking out , over the message because I've had people attack me online to the point of getting rid of facebook and stuff. I've also had a neighbor who stalked. So I immediately was ambushed by all this like sadness and lack of privacy?? then I was trying to hide the tears from my husband even though he's a total sweetheart and would support me I didn't want to make him feel bad (even though that happened anyway because he thought he made me cry). I've had this once before where I get so emotional I can't stop going through a loop of crying & being hysterical like laughing and stuff (last night) Of course I told my husband it wasn't him at all. Today I'm a bit better but I've already self sabotaged myself at my job by not following rules. I just can't handle my moods being everywhere like this. I'm just tired.
You are really going through a difficult time right now. It's very frustrating and overwhelming dealing with stalking people. Some of them think they have every right to your privacy. This can be very overwhelming at times especially if they violate any of your boundaries, including your psychic ones. That sometimes leads to a feeling of losing control over ourselves and then it is harder to manage our emotions. And with the stalking, sometimes there is a feeling of extreme vulnerability and even a feeling of loss of dignity. It's not easy for a lot of people to understand these things, so I understand how you feel really overburdened by this especially because you have gotten attacked so many times and it sounds like you keep this all to yourself. It sounds like your husband is supportive and that you really care about him and his feelings as well. It sounds like he has been affected emotionally by this situation as well. It sounds like that you were on the right track by creating a new photo album though. It's just that you have experienced some setbacks. I understand that it's difficult dealing these fluctuations in your moods and also the fatigue. It's so easy to lose faith in ourselves during difficult times, but it is not impossible to regain it and get back on track.
@peacefulIris56
Wow I really appreciate your input, thank you so much for the comment. It makes me feel better that i'm not alone and thank you for making me feel better about how I feel regarding the stalking!! Yeah I've had at least.. Two stalkers irl, and when I tell people about it happening, they just laugh or brush it off like the person is being nice or whatever, when it's more scary and invasive. I know the person probably doesn't mean it, but they should respect boundaries as you said. Yes I agree he may be affected too because this time it's a male stalker, the first two were females (which he wasn't fond of either because they also wanted to know Everything about him, us, me). I appreciate your positivity about regaining strength and keeping on. Thank you for giving me some positive encouragement!!! I definitely needed it!! I hope your day is going well !!
@raininglillies13 You're welcome. I am glad that you are feeling better and encouraged now. Dealing with the stalkers and non supportive people does really take an emotional toll on one's mind, especially since it is so invasive. Those people are always going to be around, so I am glad that you shifted focus away from that negativity and to something positive and encouraging and that you were able to find the support and encouragement needed to help you get back on track. Thank you for your kind words. The positivity really does help. My day is going well. Thank you for your concern.