Hi BPD Community!

I am a 21 year old female who only just discovered this community today! I am undiagnosed, however I am certain that I have BPD. Reading these posts gives me so much emotion. I have felt so alone for so long. Part of me wants to cry right now but I am SO happy to have found a place where people actually relate to me.

I have opened up to absolutely no one about my BPD. A few people know I have depression, but I feel as though that's a lot easier to talk about. BPD feels indescribable. I've actually never even tried putting it into words because it makes me feel petty.

I don't think I will ever tell anyone about my BPD. I just can't imagine anyone responding well. I have a hard time having healthy relationships and I don't want to scare people away. My BPD has controlled my life for what feels like forever. I just wanted to say HELLO and THANK all of you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I feel a lot less lonely.