I created my own trauma

@pluckypLucky

I'm sorry to hear that you went through such a difficult experience during your teenage years. It's important to know that you did not create your mental health issues – they are the result of complex factors such as genetics, environment, and life experiences.

It's understandable that letting go of the voices and hallucinations was a painful and traumatic experience for you. They were a part of your reality for so long, and it can be difficult to let go of something that has been a constant in your life, even if it was a negative experience. It's important to give yourself time to process your emotions and work through the grief of losing a part of your reality.

It's also important to acknowledge the strength and resilience it took for you to overcome your psychosis and move forward with your life. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to confront and manage mental health issues, and you should be proud of yourself for the progress you've made.

Remember that healing is a process, and it's okay to seek support and guidance along the way. Consider reaching out to a therapist or support group who can help you work through your emotions and develop coping strategies for managing your mental health. You are not alone, and there is hope for a brighter future ❤️

@pluckypLucky

Dear Lucky,

first of all, I truly want to praise you for having the stregth to do something that only few people experiencing psychosis are able to do - you let go.

I want to ephasize how extremely difficult this is. Namely, an essential characteristis of psychosis types which involve hearing voices and seeing things that aro not there, is that it is futile trying to convince these individuals that what they see/hear is not real. In their mind, these experiences are very real and inspite of various evidence in their environment which point to the impossibility of existence of those voices and hallucinations - accepting that is not an option for them. That is not because they are stubborn or anything like that - but because that is part of this ilness. I am speaking from experience because I have a family member who has the same symptoms you described for years.

I educated myself thoroughly on this issue and I think that what you pulled off is incredible. Although I can comprehend that it must have been painful for you to let go of your primary beliefs and convictions related to the voices and hallucinations, from another point of view, the trauma you experienced from letting go is highly meaningful and an enormous step towards healing. Letting go is not easy and it is not supposed to always be relieving at first. In the long run, I believe that you will see this experience as something highly positive and as something necessary that had to happen in order for you to pace forward in life. This is a truning point for you and you should be proud of yourself!

I wish you all the best on your journey... Take care and speak kindly to yourself ❤️