I have bpd

@brattyblueeyes90 Thank you for posting on 7cups. I can understand that you're seeking help, and I truly do hope you can find it. My recommendation would be a therapist. You can use this website to find a therapist around you:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us (Psychology Today)

You can either call or email the therapists office of your choice (calling works best for getting a response) and tell them you'd like to schedule an appointment. They will ask for a name, address, and health insurance. (you can filter therapists by the insurance they will accept in the link I sent).

Once you schedule and perform a session, the therapist will know what treatment best accomadates you.