I think I
Thank you for reading.
I have reached out to some people I considered friends however they haven't responded .. I guess maybe COVID19 is affecting that - not sure.
I have been working from home for about a month now and have been doing well up until the past week. It all started when someone at work invited me to a trivia thing (online) however when I hopped on to join, I was invited. I took this rejection hard and personal.. which then opened the door for paranoia, my best pal.
since then there has been a flow on ripple effect - my boss isn't talking to me because I raised an ethical concern about his behaviour (substantiated), three other girls I thought were my friends are all ignoring me which has made my paranoia even worse. I know it sounds small but BPD doesn't discriminate.
anyways.. I feel empty tonight and void of all emotion and I haven't felt that way in years. I want to fill that void and it's so hard to resist the urge to self harm.
hence, I am here.
@Bowiemily ***correction - wasn't invited to trivia. ****
@Bowiemily
I can relate
I ran into a person yesterday in store (who trained me in my job before retiring and caused me so much pain in training..and is bff with my boss still) she saw me and basically snubbed me them jumped on her phone. I believe she called me boss - to report i was not wearing mask in store- well it is not mandatory where i live and i am not buying into all the hysteria. She narcissistic troublemaker who i have been trying to heal from for momths so seeing her i relapsed and her with that phone again
@JLY
tried to tell family but they just get worked up
no one can relate
