Loving Again with BPD (CW: Mentions of s*icide and ab*se)
Hi, I'm brand new to this forum and 7 Cups in general. Since I'm not too comfortable giving my real name out, I'll refer to myself as Ding. (Hope that's okay 🖤🖤) I've had BPD for a few years now, I was diagnosed with it and major depression and anxiety after struggling with s*icidal thoughts and actions since 2013. I'm doing a bit better than I was, but not as good as I hope to be.
I'm very conflicted and really don't know where else to go. I've been through multiple ab*sive relationships where my partners manipulated my disorder and used it against me. (I'm comfortable going into it if asked) But now I'm in a relationship again and I'm terrified it's gonna happen a 5th time. I really wanna shake this fear because my partner deserves better than this. What should I do?
@OceanicDing
Hi there Ding! A warm welcome here to you. I am happy that you have found our subcommunity and I hope this will be a nice experience for you.
I understand your confusion and fears very well. Personally, the only thing that has really helped me in dealing in a better way both with myself and with all kinds of relationship I have is therapy… I also do lots of self-therapy. Is this something you may consider?
I hope to see you around :)
