Married and have BPD
I often wonder why I got married again for a second time of my first marriage didn't work either my first husband was a mysoginist so that pretty much explained why that failed... This new husband is a narcisstic ( lucky me I sure know how to pick em)... But I have BPD and boy does he love to play head games with me and I go thru phases of wishing him dead because I'm sick of his attitude and sometimes I like him enough to wanna stay here when he tries to be nice to me but usually it's because he wants something ( money - food - sex)... You get the picture ... But the longer I stay here the more and more I get filled with rage towards him ... Anyone else in this catch 22 situation also?
Does he make you happy?
Once in a blue moon it like our biorhythms are off..I don't even get depressed I just go numb and try not to feel anything at all ... I resent him for bringing his mom here to come live with us against my wishes ... And I'm too poor to get divorced again
Did he bring her to help?
Supposedly but she's greedy and lazy