My BPD monster
I am just so tired of my BPD self. One moment I have friends the next I'm all alone. Its easy for me to build friendships but to keep them... Well thats a sad story of my life... I wish I never had BPD. I wish it wasn't apart of who I am. The one moment I'm happy sad angry mad. Thats the thing.. In one moment. I feel all emotions... Its so hard... All of it... I just mess things up where ever I go. I'm a monster.. I just dont love me. I try to wear this mask. But in the end... Its my bpd monster everywhere....
Hi there @Joyfulgrace, I am really sorry your post remained unanswered for such a long time... I wonder how you are feeling right now and if things got better for you in the meanwhile... You are definitely not a monster and bpd is just one of many other parts that constitute your self 
I'd love to hear from you