My confessions
I don't like people very much because I am always misunderstood ..
my BPD is horrible and it's hard to control ....
i fantasize a lot about living alone somewhere I can't be found away from society especially my family and relatives...
i don't remember how to feel LOVE anymore ...
I understand how you feel because I have before, its hard to feel love when all people see are your disorders or that's what you feel like, its hard to like people in general when you're different, but as someone in a relationship with BPD and other disorders I can say you can find people who will see you for you and not as that girl/guy with that disorder, not everyone will understand but its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all, its better to try and find people who will see you
I love this, I agree with you
Thanks for your post... Yes I know about loving and losing as I am currently married now but I lie to my husband daily when I tell him I love him just to keep the peace here ... But he focuses to much on my illness and it's sad because he also uses it against me when it is to his advantage .. He has betrayed me emotionally and well I closed off my heart to avoid suffering ... I hope that makes sense..
It does make sense I get what you mean, It sounds to me like maybe its an abusive relationship, maybe not physically but emotionally if he uses it against you like that, I'm sorry that he does that to you, I don't know your who situation so I can't tell you to just be honest and tell him how you feel but if you're not happy you have to change it. I've made the mistake of trying to live with something that I new wouldn't make me happy jut because it would keep the peace or make someone else happy , it depends on if you love him or you dont, if you don't you can't force it and make yourself love him, if you do love him you could work on it with him but from what you've said it sounds like you're not happy with it. Just remember its your life and if you're not happy you are the only person who can take a chance and try to change it, it may be hard but the road to happiness is a bumpy path
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Works for me I agree I just come here to vent I don't plan on meeting anyone online because simply I dot trust no one either...
Cool :) I just wanted to mention it cause someone posted theirs. Hugs to you
Awesome
I hate my body and everything about it. I come off as cheerful, loud, nonchalant and cocky, but in reality I am so so insecure. I'm constantly plagued and harassed by this unexplainable indescribable aching feeling that I can't put words to, and it feels like physical depression if that's even a thing. It aches from my spine and towards my mind, spontaneously and I can't explain it. I'm hurting all the time and idk what to do. Please. someone. Am I crazy?
I burned myself with matches a couple days ago and called them mosquitoe bites so people wouldn't ask
I didn't realize my last relationship was a little (i say little cus so many people have really bad experienceswith that)sexuallyabusive until the damage was done. I can't control what i do sometimes now, like Pavol'sdogs or something. If sex comes up with someone i feel like i either have to do it or i cower and get triggered into self harm. just had to get it off my chest...
i have a confession i lied about me cutting myself because my dad pushed me in a glass mirrior and cut my arms bad and i didnt want child protective services to me away form him. people thought i was a freak and took the turn for the worst but in relaity i was living a lie for my dad
